I pray the Lord will give each and everyone of us greater understanding of Him and His ways. That each of us will seek Him and all His ways. That each of us will read His word so that we can remain steadfast in Jesus and grow in maturity and His wisdom. I pray that we will become women that not only pray for our husbands, but believe that the Lord can work miracles in ourselves, our h's and our marriages.<P>When we rely on ourselves to work in our relationships they can only be as good as the two people's understanding. But if we allow the Lord to work in us and our marriages then the possibilites for greatness is limitless. But before He can do that we must be in right relationship with Him. He is the Lord, and we must put Him first. To grow we must study His word and trust Him.<P>Lord my prayer this week is that You will take all I need to surrender to You from me. That You will draw me closer to You. Lastly, that I will be diligent to read Your word and that You will work Your word to revive my heart.<P>I also am in prayer for a couple of things. 1) that the Lord would help me to understand and work in truth and love in my relationshhip with the woman that lives with me.<BR>2) that the Lord would show me how I can serve Him in this new church I am attending.<BR>3) that the Lord would guide me to know what to do about approaching my h about a discussion of how secrets are still very much involved in the family dynamics and what to do about it. If we are to seek family counseling, Lord I pray that you will open the door to work through my h's therapist. If this is not the case then to guide us to the best therapist for us.<P>Lord I ask that You go before me and us in all things. <p>[This message has been edited by hw (edited January 15, 2001).]

I am so grateful for all the blessings of the Lord! <P>I love you sisters, and pray for each of you, and even the lurkers I can't pray for specifically. You are all in my heart and thoughts, even though I don't really know any of you. <P>I need to further abase myself before the Lord and just go and do it. Holding nothing back.<P>I would ask a blessing on my husband that his heart will continue to soften, that he will find a good Christian man he can look up to and see the fruits of the Spirit. That he will feel a need to seek God, and to join his family in church community worship and fellowship.<P>Bless you, hw.

another year older and another Day wiser.<P>tomorrow is my birthday and I sure could use your prayers to make it throught this day. In my head i expect nothing from my H and as last year am sure that i won't even get a "Happy Birthday". although I have not expectations from him i still get emotional and have a hard time. It is still hard to deal with the fact that he doesn't care enough to aknowledge my special day.<P>continue to pray the Lord will soften his heart and that i continue to stand strong in the Gap for my marriage.<P>Thanks for the prayers.

I pray for the Lord to change me. My H has agreed to counselling. I should be happy I suppose. Instead I feel like I'm all used up and there's nothing left of me. I started reading POPW tonight. I seem to have lost interest in my H altogether. He's finally ready to try, and I'm not interested anymore. The prayer in chapter 1 of POPW would be insincere coming from me. I guess I need as much or more divine intervention as my H. Perhaps I was hurt so much in the past, that I've hardened my heart to prevent more pain from creeping in. I don't know. I pray that my blindness, denial and ignorance will go away.

I ask for continued prayers as from last week to be able to speak the truth in love and to set boundaries before crisises occur. For wisdom to tell my H where I am at emotionally (near the end of the line) and to be open to inviting and hearing positive suggestions to addressing the problems, remembering that I am the judge as to whether suggestions are feasible or not. I put my notice in today at my job. As painful as that was, I am at peace about it. <P>I intend to be with my son while he goes through whatever treatment the doctors deem appropriate. They will determine treatment plan on the 24th. My mother now has to have her mammogram repeated on the left side due to "shadows". We have breast cancer in our family. My H is not happy about my decision to leave to care for them. I want to use this time in a constructive manner to have some space to pray and seek His face in making decisions regarding this marriage, etc. As I have said before, I am willing to go live on a rooftop so as not continue to sin with resentment and lack of respecting if need be.