Greetings! Wow! What do you say, there just are NO human words for the Living Hell of Infidelity. This is my first post. I have been reading for quite sometime. The thought of my posting for you these books that have seen me through came to me this morning durning my Prayer time. (Never had an active Pray time before Husbands Affair) I have to grin at that, oh, how I have changed, a true two edged sword this experience. My most heartfelt love, support and prayers go to all of you. We are nine months into recovery. And like you all, there are high highs and the lowest lows. Yet I remain humble and try to see my Husband with Gods eyes of love, not my human ones, I also fall very short at times too. My 42 year old husband is growing too and becoming the Man I always hoped for...Am I to wounded to accept this love...I will not allow my "human emotions" to interfer with what I see as God's plan for our restoration. So I continue to pray and work on myself. Feels so good after so long. Forgive the rambles. These books were sent to me by my Father. A very wise and Godly Man. I hope they help, instruct and encourage you as they have me!<BR>Warning...They are hard to read and be sure to read them twice. The first time I read them it was with my Husband in mind,,,,HE does that and HE does this....<BR>Then I got a revelation...Read them with yourself in mind. OH YES, it take on a whole new sobering meaning! Somedays I had to read only one line or paragraph and fight with the information for days,,,then it became mine to believe in and apply to my life. God has giving me one very plain truth through all of this..."Sit still and wait" I am answering all of your prayers" and this has been my mantra. Allow him to work and refine you for his purpose. He will use these unfair, horrible, sinful situtations to our and his benifit if we can but believe and learn true faith. Thank you and Gods Peace to all of you.<BR>THE WAY OF THE CROSS---ROY HESSION<BR>HOLDING ON TO HEAVEN WHILE YOUR HUSBAND GOES THROUGH HELL---CONNIE NEAL<BR>STREAMS IN THE DESERT----L.B. COWMAN<P>This journey is tough, and I fall into so many traps and triggers, yet I have learned so very much about myself, love and God that I am the better person for it...no matter the outcome!<P>------------------<BR>"Be still and Wait"

The books sound interesting, can I find them at any local bookstore? Or library or a christian book store? Please let me know. I need to read these for myself. Angels come in many forms, and today I have a feeling you are ONE!!!<BR>Thanks Tyra

Thanks Em...<P>I've added them to my general post on ===><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum29/HTML/000025.html" TARGET=_blank>Books</A>!<P>Jim

Tyra and Jim-<BR>Thanks for the post and for adding the books to your site. I am honored!<BR>And my dear Tyra- my father got these books at a christian book store. Several are very old but still in print and can be ordered if not in stock. I have given several now as gifts. The book by Connie Neal is newer, Holding on to Heaven while your Husband goes through Hell. This is just the very best reading yet on our responsiblity to our God, our husbands and ourselves. Down to earth,never "preachy" and so relevent! I have dog eared and written all over these books and they have become dear friends. Brokeness is a condition that the Lord uses to mold us. My husbands affair BROKE ME, but good! And the Lord loved me enough to raise me out of the ashes and set me in a very high peaceful place in a relationship with him. He meets my needs while my husband can't and HE is enough! Learn now, this is YOUR time. You must decided whether this will break you or you will use it to become strong and whole, for God, yourself, your children and Your husband. Think of the lessons you are teaching those children, friends and others, including Husband and the Other Woman. You are not taking anything on the chin, lying down or becoming a doormat. You are growing in all the most important ways. Because when we come down to what really ever Matters in this life, it is God and how we allow him to work through us. View this as a deeply intense journey God has reached out to take you by the hand and lead you on. A journey of new life and self discovery. YOU WILL LOVE WHAT YOU FIND! Explore your role as a woman, a beautiful, sexual, intuitive, graceful being, filled with Gods love and a strong idea of what it is to have a womans heart filled with Gods Love, not human emotion. Your perspective will change and so will your sitiuation. Maybe not your Husband, but that is Gods job,NOT EVER YOURS! He is a fine sinfilled piece of work and Only God knows his plan for dealing with him. Do not step in that path. REMEMBER THIS...NOTHING COMES TO YOU EXCEPT THROUGH GODS HANDS FIRST AND HIS LOVE IS BEYOND YOUR HUMAN UNDERSTANDING. You would never let one of your babies fall from your arms onto the hard earth and God loves us more than that,,,,he will NEVER let us fall. The only way to survive this is with Gods devine intervention in OUR lives. It will be the hardest, seemingly most unfair choice you have to make, YET, it is the most wonderful thing you will ever do for yourselves and your loved ones. I have spent many an hour on the floor, flat on my face, and the only words I could utter were animal like sobs and wails. God hears these, knows our pain, our hearts and Blesses and heals!<BR>BELIEVE and have faith!<P>------------------<BR>"Be still and Wait"