Today is our anniversary. 16 years. <P>He is going to be home soon from work and we will celebrate as much as we can.<P>I am sad. I couldn't find the right card for him. They all said stuff that just didn't fit our situation. Even though we are in recovery he stills loves the OW more deeply than he has ever loved any one. That is including me.<P>Please forgive me for being so glum. I just wish I could muster up happy feelings in stead of pain.<P>Special occassions are so hard. <P>I feel like not being here when he gets home. I need to be the only woman he loves. Is that incrediably selfish of me? <P>I am a lucky and blessed woman. So why do I have tears and feel so sad?<P>This roller coaster ride is for the birds. <P>I have to try and pretent tonight. I don't know how. <P>No use going on with this because I am unable to really put into words what I am feeling. I just needed for someone to hear it that cares. <P>Thanks guys...where would I be without all of you?<P>------------------<BR>God bless you and all of us.<P>Samantha<BR>

I care. <P>All those answers were a stepping stone to healing.<P>I hope your 17th anniversary will be a celebration of victory!<P>Happy Anniversary. You've made it this far.<P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13

Thank you FH, <P>I have champagne chilling and just getting in the shower. I want to just forget for just this one night for now that none of this ever happened. That he loves only me and that he is happy to be here. <P>I imagine this is hard for him too. <P>Please pray that I act like God would want me to and that I only say the right things.<P>I so appreciate you concern and kindness.<P><P>------------------<BR>God bless you and all of us.<P>Samantha<BR>

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SAMANTHA!!!<P>I am sorry that you feel sad....This whole infidelity situation stinks.<P>But I want you to remember something...<P>Seventeen years ago today, you and H were the only people on earth to each other.....let yourself "feel" like you did on that day!!! <P>If you allow only sadness...you both will feel only sadness!! If you remember the happiness...you can both feel that happiness again!!<P>Those two people are still inside you both....there's just alot of "stuff" holding them in...let them out for awhile - they might like it and want to stay!!!!<P>Have some love and laughter!!!<P>BIG HUGS TO YOU BOTH,<P>Sheba

Happy Anniversary SAM!! and H!<P>It is time for our toast.<P>To you and your H on this wonderful day. How special it is to have him home this year!!<P>I know you are feeling blue- I am too- although for different reasons.<P>You are a wonderful, caring, loving, woman. We are both blessed. We have family and friends who love us.<P>Here's to you, Sam. Bottoms Up!!!<P>Cheryl<BR>

I am sure you sure don't deserve to be on the roller coaster, but unfortunately it is the ride we all get stuck on. If there weren't the down's, I don't think we would appreciate the ups. Good luck and happy anniversary.