Found this great post over in "Just Found Out" forum. Last post esp. worthwhile<BR> <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum29/HTML/000196.html" TARGET=_blank>http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum29/HTML/000196.html</A> <p>[This message has been edited by TMD (edited June 27, 2000).]

This is an excellent post - thanks for bringing it here. It is many of the things I've been thinking (known), a confirmation.

This was an excellent post. I assume the last post at the time you wrote this was the long devotional. It is very hard to see things this way and explain to others, but I really feel like I am doing what God wants me to do by staying with my H despite his A and working on our marriage. Right now, in order to do this, it looks like I will have to give up all my hopes and dreams in order to make this work. I'm not real happy about that since I was the one betrayed, but I still feel it is what needs to be done. I keep hoping and praying that I will be able to let God lead me in the right direction and that I can trust Him to do what is right for us.<P>Thanks for the link. I might not have read that far if it had not been pointed out.

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I wish I could get a sense of that pain deep in my own heart as you do D. It would help. I must have walled off my heart for some reason from feeling that lately. <P>This was a good post though...<P><p>[This message has been edited by lighthouse (edited July 05, 2000).]

Hi lighthouse,<P>I think from what you've said you must be in the same position I am in. <P>I hope I did not sound as if I have it all 'together.' If you knew my situation, you'd see I am so far from it. <P>The walls you mentioned, I think we all build them up in different areas. I have many myself. Walls that have kept my husband outside in many ways, and walls that still hold the man I have brought into my heart there. They are not easy to tear down, especially if they've been building up over long periods of time.<P>Yes, this post was good, I guess for me it shows hope. Sure we could all use more of that these days.<P>Your username is a good one. Maybe now you are a lighthouse that beams out it's light through the fog looking for what must be out there - hope and answers?? And one day perhaps soon enough, your light will shine like it is intended to: over the sea to help others through the storm, away from the rocks.<P>-Dawnn

So in other words...."The devil made me do it!"??<P>Lies, deceit, lust, greed, addiction, BETRAYAL--sure smacks of that pointy little guy.<p>[This message has been edited by Leilana (edited July 05, 2000).]