Lori,<BR>Just an update on us. Jeff is gone again. It is kind of my fault because I kinds blew yesterday and he left for the weekend so we could have some time to sort through our feelings. To tell you the truth right now I'm a jumble of different feelings. I love him so much but how much of this can I take. I told him that if he left me again he was never coming home again. My head keeps telling me that is what I should do but my heart would do anything for him. Tonight I'm afraid my heart is winning.<BR>He was supposed to call today but have yet to hear from him. I'm just so tired I was really beginning to feel secure with us again. He told me he just feels so restless and unsettled. Of course he told me the famous I love you but I'm not in love with you. He also told me that I'm his best friend in the world and he can't see his life without me in it. I told him that is what being in love is. Not that teenage feeling of love. True love is being your spouses best friend. I could talk until I'm blue in the face but right now nothing I say is going to make a difference. I just need to tell sombody this as I'm not ready to tell any of my friends and family whats going on. They think we are doing good.<P>Hope things are better with you. I'll keep you updated.<BR>Jill

Hi Jill,<P>Just stumbled by the site for a minute and what do I find?? You! Of all people, I didn't think THIS would happen again.<P>What happened? Is he seeing someone again?<P>I am so sorry! I saw this post and said, NO WAY!!!!<P>Maybe a little time away is just what he needs. I know you guys were/are doing great. Did the kids know?<P>I'm here for you, Jill. I think about you often.<P>Sending you a huge hug and a special prayer.<P>Love ya,<BR>Cheryl

Hey Cheryl,<BR> It's so nice to hear from you. Yep I'm back again. I think it's over for good this time I just have that feeling. He came home today to get more things. He's just really screwed up and I think I was just trying really hard not to see it. I guess you can't help someone who doesn't want to help themselves. Even the kids said they arn't surprised by his actions. <BR> How are you doing. How's that sweet little girl. I'll send ya an e-mail too.<P>Jill

Hi, Dear Friend.....taking a bit of a break, but heard you were having a hard time.<P>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jill}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>You have mail!<P>If you need me, you know where to find me, ok?<P>Love and prayers,<P>Lori