Greetings MB'ers. I would first like to say that I have read many of the posts from the last couple of days and my heart goes out to everyone. My problems seem almost petty compared to many, and I respect you for having the strength and courage to hold your own and share your experiences. Once again, here is my 2 cents. My WW continues to say that she is not sure how she feels about me, and shows little remorse for her A's (there were several). I have read that this is a natural response but it doesnt' make it any easier for me (or any BS I would imagine). She even continues to see the OM, though it is not CURRENTLY a PA, it was previously, and is still very much a EA that could very easliy I think become a PA again. I have tried meeting her EN's as best as I can, as she just opened up to me a bit Sunday night about what she needs. I come back to the house (I have moved out for the time) and watch the boys while she works and clean and laundry etc. While I was cleaning today, I found her diary, and yes, I read it. I know it was wrong, but I couldn't help it. In it she says how she wants to work things out with OM, (appearently they had a falling out of sorts) and wants to "hold him close and feel his touch". As I said, she sees him irregularly, but not by her choice. I think that if she had her way she would see him much more often. As it is, she only sees him when he comes into the bar she works in, she also mentions she is depressed because she won't see him as much because he is taking on a second job. By the way, he is married also and is 13 years older than her. She continues to tell me she wants to try and give us a chance, but that she needs to "date" both of us to see where he heart lies. I say KAKA!!!! I have done my best to make as many love deposits as possible while avoiding the LB's, and she is starting to open up to me more, but I can't help feeling that there is really no hope for us. I have avoided educating her as per the site advice (she would hate it anyway) and have avoided excessive confrontations about OM. But it is very painful to think of her with him, even if there is no sex (which I'm not sure of, I have no way to know). Then tonight, while I'm with the boys, she calls and says he is coming over to see her at work!! I am glad she is being honest, but... Should I move to Plan B? Should I tell her she needs to cut off all contact with OM now? Should I accept the fact my marriage is over and start moving on? So many questions I can't even get them all out. When I do see her, she is responsive and we often end up getting intimate, should I cease this? Am I just allowing her to use me/us? I am assuming this is what I've seen referred to as "cake-walking". I know mine is not the most important question(s) of the night, but any advice from anyone would be great help. I have doing Plan A (albeit quite one-sided) since I first arrived at MB's a few weeks ago, should I give it more time? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />
