This is only new to me but in two weeks. I have been to hell and back.In the first few days of finding out H had a 5yr A and we together for 16yrs. I was understanding to wayward H,we talked and cried together, and there looked as if we had hope.I could see what our problem had been for all thoes years,and told him I understood his pain,and how the lies must of nearly killed him.WE did the EN Questionair,I put my heart and sole into it,and he answered as best he could.The next day I was a angry revengful mess.Have been for three days.I riped up the EN questionair and through it at him saying it was to hard to live under the shadow of his affair and that it is all to hard and hurtful and I knew how to fix that,and that was I want to leave.He said I should do it quick as I am impossible to live with.He is saying he loves me always has and always will and will not give up on me, until I have sone new in my life and that would tell him its over.If it was a card game it would be called euka.But its not,and I want to be a winner her as the odds are stacked.Its is my choice here which card to play but the most important card would be the card to emotional freedom.Its my choice, not my feeling,that will give me hope,lift the burned and save my sole.I will just remind my self the best I can of my new choice, and this I have found here with you all.I hope to find happeness, and not inprison my self in his A.I know its is early days and shouldnt make rash decisions, but for know, today I feel a little freer.
Regards to all and stay hopeful.lovesick