Well, it's been a few days since I posted. Wondering why nobody has responded. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm being shunned or something.

W seems to be having a harder time lately dealing with my ONS. She seems to be bringing it up more and more often asking the same questions. What did she look like? Was she married too? Did she know you were married? Did you even think about me when you were doing this thing?? (What is the obvious answer to this one?? If I had thought of what I was jeaprodizing and the hurt I was going to cause and the pain both of us were going to feel, I would have NEVER have done such a thing. Did I have fun?? I guess I was having what some people would call fun while I was out drinking and totally drowning my good judgement, but in the long run is that really fun??

We are still counselling with our pastor who seems to really be helping, but it's still an up and down rollercoaster. My W has always wanted my attention to the point that I have a hard time accomplishing my responsibilities. I know she loves me and I love her. She hasn't worked for a number of years and we have been fortunate to be able to afford that, but with me being out of work now for as long as I have been, she is still very hesitant about finding a job. I really think working will help her self esteem tremendously. Plus it would give us something to talk about.

Well, better close for now. Please, somebody give me some feedback!!!

Thanks,

ididit just to let you know you might get more responses in General Questions II more people post there then here, wasn't sure if you knew that or not. You will get a lot of input there some good some bad but mostly good.

Thanks for the input Tinnman. Will do that.

Hey ID how are things going?

I haven't been on here in a while but I am checking in to see how you are doing? I have a lot of catching up to do I guess.

Ali

Thanks for checking in on me Ali. Starting to wonder if I need to do something special to get input from the folks out there. I guess as the urgency dies down, so do the responses, BUT this is a process and I want to see it out to the end. Today being Friday, we are going out for a little while. My fear is that she will want to drink and it's all downhill from there. I have been proud of her though lately. She has really been keeping it under control and we have still been dealing with some of the anger, but at least I know that it's real and from her and not from the alcohol. It's also a lot easier to talk logically.

Better run. Wish us luck.

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