I work midnight shift and just had that pit in my gut feeling that I have grown to trust. My wife sent a NC letter a week ago, but I felt she did it not because she wanted to, but because she knew I wanted her to. Well, at 3AM I saw they had been emailing each other back and forth for most of the night and I raced home to catch her in front of the computer. I did and we argued for quite a while about it. I emailed the OM in an angry tone, I told him I wanted to meet him face to face to talk to him. I sent another long detailed email to him explaining what I knew and why I felt they were more than "friends". The one positive that came out of it is that she did send another NC letter on her own free will.

Our MC mentioned that sometimes people find out that they are poison for each other as a result of counceling. My W is very apprehensive about giving me another chance. She is afraid we are poison together and fears I will revert back to my old ways after a couple of months. I can offer no guarentee that I will not revert back as I have done in the past, so I don't know how to convince her to give me another cahnce. I have pretty much begged for one last chance, but don't think she is real optimistic about my ability to be a bettr husband.