I am not sure how I feel about this. I found out yesterday and I was indifferent most of the day. This morning I am not ok.
I found out from a friend of his, and was shocked when I heard of it; apparently he proposed within the month and the wedding is planned for early August.
I just talked to my ex for the first time in months this morning about financial issues, and did not share this news with me at first. I brought the topic around to marriage, and he finally told me.
I consoled myself yesterday in the belief that he was marrying her so suddenly because she was pregnant. Nothing else made sense. I found out today that she is not. It took the wind out of me. He WANTS to marry her. That is a sickening thought.
He left last June and our divorce was final in November. He moved in with her out of state in November as she started her first year of college. He had an EA with her; denies ever having a PA, but you never know.
A few months ago, he was calling me and telling me how sorry he was and what a fool he had been. We had a connection, he said, and he didn't work hard enough to try to save things. I guess now he is willing to make a committment that he was not willing to make to me. I was a woman and she was a little girl, he had said. Who marries little girls? Little boys????
I know the statistics and the odds, and they make me laugh. I know I should focus on me instead. These are little consolation when I feel so discarded. I wish I could just stop crying and thinking about it all--the divorce, the wedding, the promises, the six years of waste this morning.