Dear Friends,
I wish all of you the Peace that passes all understanding this Christmas. I wish it for myself as well. I will not be here as often as I used to. For now, my M seems to be over. I am not defeated however. I received a gift from one of my friends here at MB. It's an e-book called How God CAN and WILL Save your Marriage. I am turning my life and my circumstances over to God. Obviously, I have been unsuccessful at restoring my M on my own, so I will now give it over to one who wants to bring me JOY. My lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
My circumstances at home are the same; my H is back with OW. In fact, he drops me at the bus every morning, telling me to "have a good day", while I know that he's on his way to OW's house for "coffee." Is it painful; YOU BET. Can I do anything about it; nope. We have not sold our home yet, so I ask you all to pray for that to happen soon, as I do not need to be completely broke on top of having a broken M. We will see an attorney on 1/3/02 to work out the details of the D. I will try my best to stall as long as possible, but I will not fight anymore either. My children and I will be moving into our own apartment on 2/2/02. I am looking forward to some new peace and being away from my H and the choices he is currently making. My children and I are in pain; but with God, we will overcome it.<p>Have I given up? Nope; just don't tell my H that. He hates to hear that I still love him and still have hopes that someday we can restore our M. But GOD KNOWS!! God has gotten ahold of me and helped me to truly see the sin in MY life. When he has gotten me where he wants me; then and only then will he turn my H's heart back towards me.<p>I pray daily for all of you. I pray that you can learn contentment in whatever circumstances you are in; right now. I pray for the restoration of all of your marriages.<p>I wish you all PEACE!<p>Love,<p>MOM
