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I have had a good week or so. I'm letting go, finally. I have been gearing up to move out on February 2. I've been spending a lot of time with friends. I've been doing Plan A; finally for me. It's making this whole new life seem not so scary. Am I nervous? You bet. But, I have excitement as well. The last 2 months have been really hard with my H "in love" with OW and me knowing it's almost over for us. He's not liking some of the detaching I'm doing; for example, last night, he was complaining about having to pick kids up. I said "well, in a couple of weeks, you won't have to do that anymore." He said "I'll still be around to help with that." I said "yes, but I won't be calling you for help because who knows where you'll be in the evenings." He said "do you think I'm going to be out every night?" I said (very calmly) "I don't know, and I don't care." He said "you really don't care?" I said "no; I'm detaching; I'm trying to disconnect from you emotionally; it's what you've wanted me to do for a very long time." He seemed really bummed the rest of the night. Now, I am not intentionally trying to hurt him. It is, however, very uplifting to say what's on my mind (without LB'ing). I don't think my H really realizes yet what a D and moving to separate residences really means. I mean I think he's wants his independence, yet wants me there, waiting for him forever. I'm just not in that place anymore.....<p>I can be alone. But I don't HAVE to be if I don't CHOOSE to be.....<p>Growing, learning, walking closer with God. That's what's making it all seem better.<p>Thanks for listening to my little ramble. <p>PEACE,<p>MOM
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You'll make it through this.. I can here it in your words. It just takes a little time.<p>I'm well beyond you in my recovery.. So I know the things that are going through your mind. <p>Keep it up.. You'll be OK.<p>Tex.
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You sound so calm...I hope I get to that point too. I know the divorce is going to go through...and I want to go on with my life...but I don't feel calm. <p>I feel like I have an immense hole inside of me ....but I guess I don't have any choice in the matter any more.<p>I hope I get to where you are.<p>[ January 20, 2002: Message edited by: miserynmissouri ]</p>
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hey!!!!Good for you!!!<p>I mean i am really proud of you and the head you have on your shoulders...wanna be just like you when i grow up [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] <p> Pray for me I feel like im dieing right now!!!I know im not, and reading your post gives me hope!!!<p> So thanx for sharing, and may God Bless you I really mean that!!!
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Thanks all! TO Glasshalffull: Prayers going out to you. It's been a rough road, one I would rather not have taken, but I've grown SO much as a result of it. You will be o.k. Lean on GOD. He's the ONLY one who has the strength and wisdom to get you through this.<p>MOM<p>P.S. - I turned 41 yesterday. I was DREADING it with the circumstances right now, but guess what? I MADE IT THROUGH!!
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