Hey how's it going?
When I started here the GF and I were planning on living together but as things have progress and changed we decided to get married first as some of you have already heard. But other things have been happening to get me to change some of my ways not only for the sakes of our relationship but for my own daughters as well.
My ex's BF is not a very nice person to my girls,calling them b**chs,and lesbains etc and the EX does nothing(worried more about getting sex that anythingelse). There are other things there that has added up to the point where the GF is encouraging me to get an apartment of my own to give the girls an obtion other than having to put up with that kind of nonsense. I also did somethings that made the GF mad enough at me to tell me changes are in order. So I've decided to not to worry about her divorce and whether or no bonehead gets her car. She wins she wins, she loses she loses. The car can be replaced she can not. I have tried to fast track this thing and all it has done is get her mad at me to the point that she threatens to end it. I stuck my nose in where it does not belong and have had it chopped off. So I decided also to let it go and ignore it so I can stop getting fustrated and angry at things. It's funny though, she is the one who told me that once he signs that peice of paper and its over that she will tell him that we are engage.
Anyways some of these changes include a decent haircut and I shaved my beard off. I also have a bad habit of prograsatating paying people I owe (sometime I just plain exhausted working 50 to 60 hours aweek and no time to do things). So next pay besides getting first and last for the new place I'm going to make a effort to recified my monetary problems. She is right that I have to change in that department too. The apartment will also help with our relationship in that we have a private place where we can go and meet and just hang out without spys(the new place has a parking lot hidden from the street). She knows it will be a place of refuse when people get too much for her(sister,mother).
Sometimes all we want to do is make some popcorn and watch a movie and just enjoy one another's company. I feel it will make things alot better between us. I'll have zero things to start out with and seeing we'll be getting a place of our own (have to have that before we get married) we get things that we'll need that I can use now without getting things we'll have to get rid of later. Anyways someone here would like to use the computer so I have to go. I'll check in later to see what you guys have to say.
One more thing, her mother called her a sinner for having me around, I told her she maybe no saint but she is no sinner, in fact I told her she is the finest and more decent woman I have ever met and proud to have her in my life. If only mama realizes how much of a decent person her daughter is instand of see her father in her all the time. I hope mama finds out that while she is comdemming us the GF's sister and the ex is getting it on while GF is at work. The two spend way too much time together for just visiting. I hope not it could get messy for the kids and if the sister's ex finds out(very controling,abusive and a stalker) they could end up in real trouble
Talk later
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