To begin it has been a week and<BR>a day since my mate left! <BR>Why does it feel like a life time?<P>I know many of you are passed this point,<BR>how did you make it thru?<P>H came today to take D for an overnight,<BR>He was going to work in the empty garden<BR>this morning. I was so up and going to plan A my little heart out.<P>Well last night it poured down rain!!!!<BR>He couldn't work in it so he stopped to get D and then left. We talked about nothing really, it felt so strange when he left I cried my eyes out...........)<P>I guess I wanted him to say how badly he missed me, and I never asked any questions that would make him feel quilty.<P>Like how much it hurt me when the phone company called Fri. morning to tell me they had to change the phone listing over to my name so he could get a phone. Then asked me if this was a Divorce, then they wouldn't charge for the change. Low blow!!!!!!!!!!<P>He acted like nothing was changed, and now I sit here so depressed and alone 8 more hours with noone to keep me company until my oldest D (my life saver) gets off work.<P>Any one want to join my PITTY PARTY? Pardon<BR> me while I dry my eyes, can't see the da#n<BR>keys!!!!<P>Do you think God doesn't want us back together? He did send the rain. <P> So what if everyone has been praying for it for weeks now................<P>I FEEL IT WAS PERSONAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR> <P>I know this too shall soon pass, but doggone<BR>it I want to be with them now . Not here seeped in my own salty tears.. Maybe I'll make a Margarieta with the salt .<P>"Come one come all I can make virgin ones too..." Someone bring the chips><P><BR> <P>------------------<BR>Peg

Oh Peggy, I am sorry I didn't get here sooner! I will join your pity party! I have a bottle of Red Rose' (My h's favorite) in the fridge. I went and bought it while he was here visiting today. <P>It is so hard after they leave. It is worse when they come over and then leave again. That may get easier, it may not. The first time my h came to visit after he moved in with the ow was a tough one. The second time was harder. Now, he came twice this week. I don't know where his head is at though. <P>Just hang in there. Do you ever do chat programs? We have been going to talkcity.com and there is an infidelity room there. Lots of people from here chat there. I went there last night and it made me feel so much better! If anything, it helped get my mind off the hard stuff. If you need help trying to figure out how to get in there, you can e-mail me at eldareed@hotmail.com. I will try and help you! <P>I am so sorry for what you are going through. I guess it was hard for me at first too. Now, I am beginning to like being on my own. I do wish my h was here but this is the life I have right now. So, I am trying to make the most of it, in spite of it. <P>I will say that this message board has been a blessing to me. It has helped me through many a rough spot! We are all here for you!!!<P>~Woozy

((((((((((((PEGGY))))))))))))))))<P>move over, honey,.....I brought the blender...and the good tequila with the worm in it...<P>and a case of kleenex.....<P>and I brought the leftover cinnamon buns from my birthday...<P> <P>can't help much, but am here for ya..<P><BR>Dylan

Just try not to blend the worm! Yuck! <P>Woozy

Peggy,<P>It is really hard I know. How did I make it through will I had help from family, but it isn't the same. I know you mind is numb and you can't concentrate or any think so trying to keep busy is hard to do. But do not give up hope after 7 months of living with the OW my H has begun to see a glimmer of light we call reality. There were times I though God had given up on me or didn't think my H and I should be together. But one thing we have to remember God works in his own time not ours and it comes in slow steps not an over night miracle. So God has already anwsered your prayers it just takes a long time for us to find that out.<P>I will join your party not to pity but to give you comfort and beside we can always use a party around here.<BR>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>------------------<BR>di<P>

woozy...LOL<P>you don't blend the worm, you get so blind inebriated that you drink the worm !!!!!!!<P>LOL<P>Dylan

OK Dylan, just don't chew the worm then!! LOL! I know, I know, you're supposed to swallow it whole right???<P>Woozy

I'm joining in the pity party again tonight!!<P>Nothing much is going on, just feeling sorry for myself I guess.<P>Peggy, you are not alone. I think there's a lot of sadness going around this weekend. Maybe if we all just hang out together, it won't be so bad.<P>(((((HUGS)))))<BR>Mitzi<P>

OH GEEZ,<P>I think I just got the worm........<P>HMMMMM has a familiar face, I wonder?<P>Thanks for coming,<BR>sorry I was out for a sec.<BR>Went to the library and got Divorce Busters.<P>Words are getting a little blurry tho.<BR>Thanks Dylan you remembered the infamous buns..........<BR>A little hard tho, we could use them to throw at H's windows and then run away.<BR>Nah that would probably wake D.<P>Thanks for being here.<BR>Woozy, I tried to go to that chat room<BR>the other day but didn't get on I guess I wasn't up to chatting that night.<BR>Come on in Mitzi & Di, have a seat on my brand new couch. Made H take the old one.<BR>That's what he'll be sleeping on since D will have his bed.<P>She called to tell me she wanted to be home with me....<P>Hand me that kleenex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR>------------------<BR>Peg<p>[This message has been edited by Peggy (edited March 11, 2000).]