After work I went to the gym and guess who was there but my H! <P>He came by and said Hi Tracy (HE NEVER CALLS ME TRACY AND I HATE IT)!!!!! He kept coming up to me. Told me about his car. Put something on it. Cost only 60.00 thought it was going to be 100.00.<P>Told me how he was going to take a shower there instead of going all the way to her house. bla bla bla<P>I went up to him once and said "Do me a favor, do not call me Tracy". <P>I don't remember how many times he came by me, Im thinking thats a good sign. I played it very cool. I read someplace, don't give him info about you. So I just responded to stuff he said. I only said PLEASE talk to V (my d) she is hurting bad.<P>Asked if i'd been home yet, to check the mail, i said no. (I'm going to leave bills etc in the mailbox so he can pick up).<P>Called me twice today about the car (we had switched yesterday when he left). Once to say he was going to switch, I said fine. Then again to say he was outside and going to leave the keys inside. I said let me give you your key also. Went outside and gave it to him.<P>I know hes confused. I know he loves me. I want to call the bimbo and say LEAVE MY HUSBAND ALONE!!!!!<P>What a turn of events from yesterday, I thought no problem, I can do this. Ha. <P>I'm not as sure of this plan b right now, cuz I do want to talk to him ( plan a). I guess I can do whatever my heart desires. <P>Today I figured out he stayed with her for 18 days, moved back in with me for 18 days. Kinda ironic don't you think??<P>I just can't understand WHY I can love someone who treats me like this?? Oh but last night I started reading a co-dependency book. I understand.<P>Wish we really could get in there heads!!!! I'd love to know how he feels. I wish I would have given him a choice about moving out instead of just doing what i did, but then HE didn't get to make the decision, maybe he'll feel pushed into going there??? Reality will come to "them" once again. The fantasy turns into reality. Hope this will wake him up. Why do I keep fighting for this?????<P><BR>tracy
