Wings:<P>I hope that you don't think that I was ignoring your post. I've been out of town...just returned today.<P>Yes, with God's help, I'm making it through this ugly mess that I've created for myself. <P>How did I let go? I ran. I ran away from evil and returned to God. I ran away from the OM and returned to my husband. I cut-off ALL contact with the OM. And, believe me, he's tried to contact me SEVERAL times. As a matter of fact, when I returned from my out-of-town trip today, I had an e-mail from the OM waiting for me (I deleted it immediately and blocked his new address -- AGAIN).<P>Yes, I had my weak moments, too. Only a few weeks after I'd cut-off all contact with the OM, I started thinking about calling him, e-mailing him, etc. I even thought about meeting him in his home town...I'm so thankful that I didn't give-in to my weakness a second time. There were days that I wanted so badly to have contact with the OM that I would almost swear that I was exhibiting the symptoms of "drug withdrawal". But, as I've said before, I'm blessed in that my eyes were opened VERY quickly. When my eyes were opened, the "withdrawal symptoms" ceased.<P>I feel like I'm rambling. <P>I'm so glad that my story has helped you somehow...thank you for the encouragement.<P>Be strong. Continue to come here...there are some terrific people here!<P>Let me know how I can help you...let me know if you have any questions. Let me know how you are...<P>Jill<P>
