Schizzo and all who have responded to some of my posts:<P>I love you all so much for your time and valuable information, it means so much too me.<P>Some times I post topics that don't get much response and just die, other times I post, then read the advice and respond and it dies.<P>Other times, I post and read the advice and go away for a while to process it and try to put it into play for my situation.<P>I am certainly not ignoring any of you, I desperately need all of you. I feel like we all are the children of the damned! or something like that.<P>Also, there is a small group of you who are so skillful at answering and giving advice or sharing your story in such a way that is so helpful and so inspiring, that it puts me to shame as far as my ability to communicate and respond in the same manner or maybe my responses are just not what others want to hear. I am pretty much a straight up, in your face kind of person. It is one of my biggest shortcomings.<P>Anyway, I love it when any of you respond to my posts, especially our senior members. I still have alot to learn!!!You've all been a tremendous support system for me!<P>Thanks a gazillion,<BR>Cathy

PS.,<BR>As a matter of fact, I wish some of you were near me and we could become friends, so many of my friends have abandoned me or maybe it's the other way around, they don't know what to do and I don't know what to say. <P>Anyway, I feel as if I am talking to a best friend here, or my sister or a big brother ( my oldest brother is gone now, but he would have kicked some b--- if he were here!!!).<P>You can e-mail me at Baboom48cpt@aol.com if you'd like too, I would love to hear from you.<P>Cathy

Thanks, Cathy.<P>I only wanted to know if you were reading the replies. I spend too much time on this site as it is and can't write people who just ignore me.<P>I too would like to meet some on this site, but it seems noone else lives down here. Oh well...

Schizzo--I love you too.<P>You posted a very informative message last week and I was feeling so sorry for myself that I did not acknowlege it--I apologize, I am very sorry. Actually, I was too upset to think of anything to say. Husband cut me to the bone. If I were a dog, I would have hid under the woodpile for a couple of days.<P>But I did read and took everything to heart. Thank you for caring so much.