Hi,<BR>I love all of you. You make me laugh and I have many reasons to cry.<P>Thanks for your replys and your humor. <P>I just sat down earlier and all of thes questions were right on the tips of my fingers. I was on a roll...<P>I even wondered if I would have any feedback about how many times I posted!! <P>I am seriously thinking about writing a book about my experiences. <P>I'll read through all of your replys. CAn't wait. Have to go eat and then pick up 13 year old daughter from dance, and then help my 11 year daughter study (the same daughter who broke her elbow-arm in a cast now-on a trampoline, and then help my 16 year old son prepare for his exams this week. I have to help our son becuase he has a stress fracture in his left foot and he is on crutchers. WONDER WHAT MY H IS DOING TONIGHT! Is is going to turn on his radar screen and see if we are still alive and breating?<BR>He is like a Stealth--he is out there yet we don't see or hear him. He is like a phantom ghost who still haunts us.<BR>Still hasn't decided if we are important enough to him; are we still an albatross around his neck? <P>Compared to the depth of self-reflection of us betrayed spouses, the wayward spouses continue to wade in the shallow dirty waters of adultery and infidelity. We would be expecting too much for them to just think: Oh, I wonder how my spouse and children are feeling.<P>Does he care that I am looking for a place for me and our kids to move to because our home is being foreclosed on May 6 because he decided to leave me and our children and not support us. Do he care that Nicole has a broken arm and Joel has a broken foot? Does he care if I have money to feed our children and pay the utilties? Does he care if I have the extra out of pocket money to pay the co-payment for their medical treatment? Does he care that I had trade in my van to buy a smaller car with a smaller note?<P>The answer to all of these questions is NO, NO, NO! aND THAT HURTS LIKE HELL--WAY DOWN DEEP IN MY SOUL AND MY HEART AND MY BEING.<P>I'll reply later. Had to expose my soul some. elo
