Having the worst day since D day – I woke up this morning my W was looking at me open eyed and I spoke to her just a hello and she hit me with an LB – accused me of waking her again – yesterday she slept until 3 pm- 12 hours sleep then didn’t get out of bed till 4.30, today already nearly 11am – she wont look at me I know she is in own fog – but I can’t stop crying – keeping it secret otherwise an LB from me. I love her so much and it took so long to find my ‘soul mate’. For 3 weeks I have searched myself for my inadequacies but I didn’t deserve this (read my other posts for history please can’t repeat again).<P>Talk to me someone I feel completely alone – <P>Trueheart are you out there you have been a great help in trying to cope so far - friend<BR>

HiP--<P>Breathe---Breathe---Breathe---<P>I don't know if this will help but here is a post I wrote...I have been on this rollercoaster for 4 months...and I know where you are at...<BR> <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum37/HTML/010682.html" TARGET=_blank>http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum37/HTML/010682.html</A> <P>Some new learnings/awareness I have discovered...from <I>The Four Agreements </I> by don Miguel Ruiz.<P>1. Be impeccable with your word: Stay in truth and love...do not speak against yourself or others.<BR>2. Don't take anything personally: Nothing others do is because of you. Nor is what you do because of them.<BR>3. Don't make assumptions: Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want...as clearly as you can without drama.<BR>4. Always do your best: This may change from moment to moment...simply do your best and you will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.<P>Have faith, husband in pain...<P>Cali

HIP (I like that).....you are <B>NOT</B> alone. There are hundreds of people in a similiar situation of being a BS right here on the MB forums. The pain is real and we all have had to deal with it time and again. It's like an ugly dragon's head that will resurface at any given moment. Being betrayed by your avowed spouse is the ultimate wound to the heart and mind. <P>The good news is that it can get better as long as you are willing to give the MB concepts your very best shot. It's not an easy row to hoe, but it's the best methods of getting a relationship back on the right track.<P>When you are feeling isolated by your pain, post your concerns to these boards. Folks here are very supportive and can actually relate to the chaos within your life. In fact, there are actual cases of recovery by some members of this forum who will give you the hope and encouragement that you need to continue upon your journey. <P>As long as you are <B>here</B> you are never alone. <P>------------------<BR><B>Time heals all wounds as long as you DON'T pick at them!</B><p>[This message has been edited by GeezLouise (edited July 21, 2001).]

Cali<P>I am breathing deeply - I had forgotton - thanks - am coming together<P>I just needed those words<P>HIP - but not so hip

Hip...<P>Hey my friend...whats up? What can I do? Breathe, like Cali said..and get it out...<P>Im here!!<P>True