Hi all im on a real downer and have even begun to wonder is H really worth it,as some of tou know H and i are apart for awhile to give him space to try and work out what he wants.<BR>We still go out for a meal or drink and i dont LB or mention OW or A, as i said elsewhere last thurs we went out and he stayed the night, then sat i took his mail to him since then ive hardly had a word from him, spoke to him tuesday as he had paperwork i needed and he said i will bring it later, got to 10 o clock so i text to ask if still coming got one back to say to tired. i just cried my eyes out im hurting so badly, he didint even come to see the kids all weekend.<BR>I know they are not small 17 and 15 but it feels like hes just turned his back and with my 15 D fighting heroin addiction my son and i decided not to tell her hes gone for awhile(he works away so i can get away with it) H knows this so i thought he would put in an appearance.<BR>But he is so wrapped up in OW he dosent have a thought for us.<BR>He is like a stranger even my son who knows nothing of the A (14 months of good acting on my part) says his dad has been total crap for the last year.<BR>My Son does motorcycle trials since he was 7 and his dad has taken him and maintained his bike etc, although there hasent been any trials for months due to foot and mouth in UK, some have just restarted sat i told H S was riding Sunday and he didint bother to come and check bike or anything my sons boss who lives near did repairs, how can he turn his back on his kids like that!!!<BR>Anyway thanks to anyone who reads this, sorry its long but i needed to vent or i will LB next time hes here.<P>------------------<BR>lizzle<BR>The hardest thing to do is watch the person you love love someone else

Hi Lizzle,<P>I read your post and can relate to your frustration. Keeping this from you children is hard since it is difficult for them to support you. I have let my 6 year old know some of what is going on. He is aware that his dad has left his family to be with another woman. He even sent a letter to his dad. <P>Children are great at getting to the heart of the issue and quickly. I am not telling you to tell your children but for me it was way to obvious since my son was very aware of what was going on. Can't fool kids. <P>Since I am not in a real good mood myself today, I will bump this up to let others provide further support.<P>Hanging together and venting here also. <P>L. <BR>

Hi Orchard thanks for your reply i know how you must feel and im glad you get comfort from your little one.<BR>I have kept the A from my S and D mainly because it helps me to stay strong and also if things work out it will be better for them (what they dont know cant hurt them).<BR>I have told my S his dad and i are having space as we havent been getting along to well, he got mad enough at that saying he should not leave it all to me to cope with the heroin thing and how he thought it was all his dad and not me as his dad has changed so much.<BR>Im dreading if i have to tell the truth in the end im not sure of his reaction and would hate him to turn against his dad.<BR>I never wanted any of this i just want my life and family whole again but i just cant see it happening the Ow has a strong hold.<P>------------------<BR>lizzle<BR>The hardest thing to do is watch the person you love love someone else