So, the trip was nice. My H said he really had a nice time and had alot of fun.<P>I did too, but I also had alot of mixed emotions which my H didn't seem to have... Many bad triggers and nightmares. He held me during them, which was nice...<P>I have lots of questions, but I will start another post about that...<P>I am trying to focus on good things that happened on the trip:<P>-H told me everything was going to be fine (again). I just said okay, I hope so. He says he knows it will be because he's been thinking of a letter he can write to me that will mean alot to me. (not a letter to OW, a letter to me). I just said okay. <P>*I do not think this letter will have the effect he seems to think it will. More words, but once again, at least he is trying, right? *<P>-We cuddled alot during the carride. That was nice. (there was a middle seat with a seatbelt that I sat in to be next to him while he drove).<BR>-Had alot of fun at the waterpark with OD. <BR>-Didn't talk about problems or OW at all.<BR>-H was very affectionate to me.<BR>-H thanked me alot for little things I did, and I did the same for him.<BR>-I filled alot of H's EN's. I pretty much stayed neutral during the trip. H's positives and negatives cancelled out...<P>I could also make a list of the bad things, but I shall chose not to. Nothing major, just little stuff... I LB'd once, but H set me straight and I made amends for it. H LB'd quite a few times, but he also made amends for almost all of them...<P>HbH

Hi,<P>You are being quite cautious aren't you? Can't say that is a bad thing. Having your H provide reassurance for you is what a lot of us need from our spouses. That is a plus. Your trip went fairly well, another plus. Sounds like you are still ahead of the game here. <P>I will let you settle back in a few days and then check back to see how you are. You have questions, this has peaked my curosity...... when you are ready throw 'em at us..... we like questions!!! LOL <P>L. <BR>