I don’t even remember the last time I posted, suppose it was sometime over the weekend. I would just like some thoughts as to what a few of you think. When he first moved out on a Friday, for the third time, he said this was it. He had made his choice, he loves both of us, but prefers her. By Monday he was calling telling me how confused he was and how much he missed me and that he was thinking of me when with her now. That had never happened to him the first two times he moved out, he only missed the kids then, now he misses me too and it makes him confused as all heck. He said what he really wanted was some time away from both of us so he could sort his feelings out. I think I’m being pretty good about that, I don’t really know if he’s holding her to it or not because I have told myself that I won’t ask any questions about them (at least I try my hardest).<p>Last weekend, I went to a hotel and WH stayed at house with kids. He took them swimming on Sunday and asked me to meet him to swap the kids at the pool. I told him (in a nice way) that I had plans and since he wasn’t living at home anymore and I’d have to deal with everything for at least the next week until we decided what to do for the next weekend, that he would have to bring the kids home when they were done swimming.<p>He couldn’t have been too mad because when he brought them home he gave me a hug and we all sat and talked about their weekend. He went to our bedroom and laid on the bed. I laid down near him and he put his arms out to hold me. That feels so good. Of course, one thing lead to another and, anyway, I guess he wasn’t mad at me.<p>He left, told the kids he had to go to the office. We’re playing that game again, he goes to the office late and works out early in the morning. He did come home in the A.M. to get the kids on the bus and we talked for a little while Monday morning before he left for work. Later in the day he called and something he said really disturbed me. He said “If I come back I’ll be spending the rest of my life making it up to you”. <p>He didn’t come home Tuesday morning for the bus but he did call and the first thing out of his mouth was “I miss you”. I told him I missed him and loved him too, but I also told him that what he said about making it up to me for the rest of his life disturbed me. I let him know that I had a part in this too and that I would also be making it up to him for the rest of my life. Making up, isn’t that a fun thing to do. I know I didn’t cause him to have the A, but our bad communication skills and my losing sight of him needing me too, not just the kids, didn’t help him to feel loved. He just felt like a paycheck around here and I just felt like a maid. <p>My father’s birthday is Saturday an he asked me to think of an excuse for him to tell her so that he can be with us Saturday and go to the party and stay at the house Saturday night. I feel like the OW now. Of course I thought of a great excuse for him to use and he must have told her last night. Evidently he has to be with her Friday night because she didn’t know anything about him not being around on Saturday until yesterday. He called again this morning and said he can’t wait to come home Saturday to spend the day with all of us. I don’t know if he plans on staying the night Saturday (I hope he does), but I’m not going to press. One day at a time. At least he will go to the birthday party with me and have fun with my family. He loves them and they adore him.
He called me again after his appointment this afternoon and said how this one guy at the appointment told him he had met me and how nice I was. He said I felt like saying “I know she is, am I crazy or what”. He then said to me how this is all so crazy and what the heck were we doing and how the heck did we get here and did I feel crazy too. I couldn’t really talk cause a neighbor was here. I told him we’d talk later as he is coming home for dinner tonight before one of his meetings. He also said that his appointment cancelled for Thursday night and asked if he could come home for dinner again Thursday. There’s no way I would have said no to that one. Let’s see if he really does. Oh well, what do you guys and girls, you WS’s and BS’s think about the situation I’m in. Am I on the right track or am I being taken advantage of. I really have to believe that some of our prayers are being answered and maybe he’s starting to see things for how they really will be.<p>Thanks for listening, hope I get some responses.
