Did I spell that right? I just thought of something. I went to that bathroom and pulled my hair up. I saw a beautiful young woman. I thought of my mother and thought, "I could be like her and Genevieve if I wanted to." I know where to go (bars), and I know how to encourage a man and meet his needs. My H's lead at work has already asked my H how he got me. What I'm saying is that any woman can do what you've done (this is not to make you feel less than what you are.) You said you make sure you get what you want. I'm challenging you to want your H above all others. Know that it's nothing special about you if you can pick up a man wherever you go. Many women do that all the time. Some are even less than beautiful. The ow in my situation has contributed to the dissolution of anoter marriage and she has horse-teeth, a barn-sized butt, bad breakouts and dyed hair (okay, so I've dyed my hair but hers looks bad when it grows out...gripe, gripe, gripe). It doesn't take a whole lot with a man who wants notches on his bedpost. You are not a nightmare...just confused as to what you want and what love is. Figure it out (and I think you have), and start craving your H's attention. Now, that's a feat, getting a man to commit to you forever...having a man that is willing to forgive you like your H has. (This message is also to my ow. Which I hate calling her that because she never succeeded in her attempts on my M.) Pride is a terrible thing, even for BS's.

hoping4future, can i have your email address please? perhaps we could keep in touch that way in case there are personal questions or comments that i may have to ask you and am too embarrassed to on the forum....
let me know <p>my email address is
genevieve_monteiro@hotmail.com

by the way, you did spell my name right!

oh and another thing....i dont exactly have the real origin of my name except that its French and it comes from the name Guinervere and that there was a movie of a car calle Genevieve made years and years ago...perhaps someone here might know where my name came from...<p>any suggestions on what name i should change to instead of complusiveliar?

Oh, okay...what about...hmmm...what about Genevieve? [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] That's what I've been calling you in other posts. I don't know, there's a lot of names you could use. "Givingmyall" uh..."Strivingforhonesty"...oooh! "Honor" I knew a girl by this name and it suggests so much. What do you think?