I have done it again. I am so ashamed that I don't want to see my h'S face. Maybe I'm not meant to be married. Maybe I should call it quits. I am so confused. Help?!

Hi Londonite,<BR>You sound kind of frantic. I don't know what you think you've done, but calm down. Is it something that you can talk about? Post when you can,<BR>Janice

Janice,<BR>I have had my 2nd affair. Noting Sexual, but not totally unphysical. Make sense? I think I need to call it quits and be a single person. Sure would be easier than going through this again. H knows about 1st time. I just don't want to hurt my 3 yr old.<BR>londonite

You mentioned on another thread that your husband works out of town a lot. How often is he home? Any chance of him finding a job that would keep him at home? Do you get to communicate while he is gone? <BR>What was his reaction to the first affair? Does he understand your reasoning behind these relationships (I'm assuming your reasons are neglect/boredom/loneliness)? I'm sure that giving up on your marriage is not what you want because if it was, you wouldn't be so upset about this now. <BR>Do you feel you need to turn to other men for emotional support instead of family members or female friends? I know what it is to feel neglected and unloved/unappreciated, and while the attention you get from OM may feel great while it lasts, the shame and guilt soon start eating you up.<BR>Have you talked to a counselor or maybe a pastor about this? <BR>I hope all goes well for you. Keep us posted.<BR>Janice