I keep track of every penny that we have. I am the one who pays the bills and keeps records of our expnses. He doesn't even know how to do it. I believe that any expenses thay needed have come from her. I know that the cell phone he had to communicate with her was in her name and the bill sent to her address.
Good! I would still take a look to make sure. People can surprise you.
I do know that he did give it back to her so they are not communicating anymore that way.
Well, people in A can be creative how they communicate. So long as he still works anywhere around her, it’s bad news. I DON’T CARE WHAT HE SAYS. He may not be tempted right now, but give it time and he WILL BE.
I have thought about being a step parent and I think we can work that out I am just worried that she will not want to let him visit if I am there and I will not allow them to be alone together. I just can't do it. So I guess that would have to be something worked out in court for visitation. I've thought about when the baby is born should we go to the hospital and visit? I think my H will want to but I'm going if he is.
Others are going to have to chime in on this one. I don’t have a clue as to what to tell you on this.
I think what is so scary to me right now is that I know he doesn't want to hurt anyone (even though that has been done already) I think it is hard for him to just tell her straight up that he doesn't love her and that he loves me and wants to be with me. He said the other day "She has to know because I just ignore he all the time."
This is why a NO-CONTACT letter delivered by someone else can be an effective tool.
The OW is going to “choose not to know” until it is spelled out in a letter!
I said all she knows is that she loves you and you have told her that you love her, she is probably thinking that you have a chance to be toghter and that maybe you just need room to let me go. He sears that its me that he wants but I'm scared that maybe he just doesn't want to hurt me even more by wanting to be with her.
Well at least he is saying the right things. Whether he feels it yet is to be determined.
My guess would be that he is struggling to figure out how to “do the right thing” and give your M “one more try”. This was most of what kept me at home. I felt like I didn’t give my M a fair chance.
He also said the other night that it's very important to him that I don't think that he left me for her, I think this is important to him because he is worried what people will think of him. (Family, Friends) He knows they will be upset already but he is sure they will think hes even more of an a** if he is actually with her. How do I know that he is truthful about wanting me and about not loving her?
You don’t. At least not yet; but again, he is still at home and claims to want to be with you. It sounds like he is spending too much time out of the house “working”. Whether
he really needs to work this much or not, it has a negative impact on your family right now.
I know that he has feelings for her but he says it's not love it's just feelings you have when you have slept with someone.
Humm……. Thinking………..
Ya, this is a problem and why NO-CONTACT needs to be established NOW. Sorry COL but he is blowing smoke up your dress. Whether he wants to face it or not, he is going to have to deal with withdrawal. It ‘s feels similar to a junkie getting off the “junk”.
The book will explain this better.
The thing about their shop is that she has been transfered across the hall because they are welders and you can't do that job when preg. She makes a point to come to their shop everyday to talk to someone and I'm sure she is just doing it to see him.
I bet she does, she is in worse shape than he is. She just got divorced and now faces the reality of losing a man she “loves”.
I am going to get the books and try to educate myself and him.
Good!
Let him read the book himself. My wife wanted to read it together but it sunk in more when I read it my self and had chances to ponder what was being said.
It’s easier to do that when your W is not asking about “WHAT ARE YOU THINKING”.
Let him discuss what he is thinking after he has a chance to think about what he has read.
I need to get him to tell her its over and believe that he did that but I'm almost positive that he wont write a letter. I will try to get him to but I don't see it happening.
I’m not so quick you can ‘get HIM” to do anything. You can ASK him. If you do it in a RESPECTFUL tone, your odds are MUCH better. Remember, he is thinking, “How can I be happy in this M”.
I wish she would let us have the child and raise it with her having visitation but she would never allow it.
Some have done it, but it ‘s rare. Most likely, over the long haul, YOU are going to have to deal with OW.
Hopefully he will want to talk tonight and we can get some of this straightened out.
I know I will take some heat for this advice, but I will say it anyway.
I know you want to “connect” with him by having “conversation”.
But I suspect you two have issues understanding what each other needs.
I would avoid the DEEP conversation until you have read the book. You can tell him all you want about how you need him to do this and that, but at this point I am not sure if it will do any good.
He needs to feel that home is a ‘safe” place to be. This will surprise him and also make him see you in a different light. He knows he messed up, but if all of a sudden you spend some QUIET time with him, even something simple like watching TV without talking but cuddled up to him. It will register to him that you are a Loving Wife . ( I am referring to recreational time). I would urge you to avoid conversation about OW, OC, or anything that gets you both tense or worked up. I am not saying do this forever, but before you start laying out what you need, you need to understand what is going on.
For now just keep it to” I hope you did not talk to OW today, it is vital to our M” and leave it at that. You could throw in “when your ready to tell me your thoughts”, I am here to listen. If he does talk, then conversation is fair game. Do your best not to condemn him.
I know this may not seem fair; you have been drug through the mud. But trust me when I say this, it will help get your H thinking that YOU are a WONDRFULL W. That he CAN BE HAPPY WITH YOU. His turn will come when you gain skills and some of the FOG has lifted.
Oh, another concer of mine is intimacy, we all know how it can be after a few years together you lose that spark and passion.
The book will do a much better job of explaining “how the spark was lost” than I could ever hope to.
I really want to have this in our marriage and I think we need to have it I'm just not sure if it is something we can get back.
The good news is you can! The two of you are just lacking the skills.
He also needs to know how important it is to start NO-CONTACT now.
Right now I don't even want to sleep with him... Any suggestions?
The short answer is to FAKE IT!
Your H feels most loved by you when are physical with him. To him this will register as LOVE. He does not register Love in the same way you do. Affection and loving words do not cut it. Their nice, but not equated to love like they are for you. MOST men feel this way.
An old saying I heard a few times over was this:
If a man wants access to a woman’s body, he must touch her soul.
If a woman wants access to man soul, she must touch his body.
To most men SEX equal ACCEPTANCE and LOVE. Often he will think, if she is willing to have sex with me “SHE MUST THINK I AM OK” that “I AM LOVABLE”.
When he feels LOVED in this way, you are much more likely to get access to his heart. I suspect that is what you really want. I am also pretty sure that is what he REALLY wants too!
I know considering what has happened, this may be the last thing you want to do. However, you are your H’s only ethical means of sexual gratification. Trust when I say, it is always on his mind. You don’t want him to have this NEED when he is around the OW. He will be MUCH less vulnerable to her charms if this NEED is taken care of by you. HE WILL FEEL LOVED BY YOU and have no NEED for her.
When he trusts you to fill this emotional need, his dependence on OW will go down dramatically.
TH