I really didn’t enjoy going out tonight. Made me miss BF and the kids more. It was a horrible night here in the UK, sat in a restaurant with all my work colleagues mostly men. It just felt weird and odd. Still I went and made the effort and got out.

Can’t ever imagining being together with BF again. Just want to put the memory in a bottle and not let go.

Still will never understand what turned him. He was so in love with me and at some point he turned.

Missing my kids tonight, will miss their cuddles in the morning.