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MM,
You have never been on the sidelines. Your weapon of choice is used for pulling down strongholds (2 Cor. 10:3-4) and once your battle is in the hands of other, it becomes more of a spiritual war than ever.
Your fight is now in trenches, your weapon is your knees. Because it is when you are on you knees that God dispatches His messengers.
2 Kings 6:16-18
16 "Don't be afraid!" Elisha told him. "For there are more on our side than on theirs!" 17 Then Elisha prayed, "O LORD, open his eyes and let him see!" The LORD opened his servant's eyes, and when he looked up, he saw that the hillside around Elisha was filled with horses and chariots of fire.
18 As the Aramean army advanced toward them, Elisha prayed, "O LORD, please make them blind." And the LORD did as Elisha asked.
You are well armed my friend.
S&C Thanks S&C! The battle has raged so intensely lately, that I am no longer on my knees. Last night, for the first time since I can even remember, I lay prostrate before the Lord. And everything just spilled out. It was actually a little unnerving, I have to admit. My pastor sunday suggested that I do so. To get alone with the Lord...and just lay completely out. Give up all control, all effort. Show in my actions that I am willing to not hold onto one single thing. I have never done that before. Never laid myself before the Lord like that before. I have always come to Him, taking a knee, listening...trying to obey. This was different! So NOT natural for me. I lay there for about 15 minutes, saying "well, I'm down here...and the carpet definitely needs to be cleaned as my face is smashed into it and it smells." But I continued to lay there. And all eventually came flooding out. Now that I think about it...the funny thing was that while I was there...it was quiet. For the first time in weeks, it was quiet. Once it all came flooding out, it just got quiet. I think I know where I will be tonight. In His arms.
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Folks, it is truly out of my hands now. And I can hear the Enemy trying to sow seeds of doubt in my mind. The attack is fierce tonight. Satan keeps bringing up what it will be like for me and the kids if my wife should get custody. It is overwhelming. This is the final battle. And EVERYTHING is at stake!
My entire future. My kids' future. All hang in the balance. I cannot fathom how she can get custody...how any sane person would allow that! (((((Mortarman))))) I hear your "human side," and the attempt by Satan to sow seads of doubt and discouragement. I hear your "wish" for the outcome loud and clear. If I may, as with Job and with Jesus, neither "wanted" to go through the loss of family nor the loss of life, but in each case they "clung" to their "spritual side" and their trust in the one who is stronger than Satan. The "battle" for the spritual side is strong because the "flesh" IS weak. Let me "loan" you Philippians 4:13, Romans 8:28, and Isaiah 35:3-10 in this time of trial to strengthen your spirit and uphold your flesh. God IS in control. He IS our refuge. NOTHING happens without God allowing it to happen in his omniscience. Know, too, that many are praying for you, your children, and for your wife during this time, that the Lord's will be done in your lives. "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen." (1Peter 5:10-11 NIV) God bless and hold you in the palm of his hand. FH, I had almost forgotten about Job. Thanks for the reminder! You know, I was told one time that if the Master suffered these things, then why not the servant? I think back to the "Passion fo Christ" movie. Of that depiction of Jesus in the Garden. Of Him prostrate on the ground, in deep anguish...asking the Father to pass the cup from Him. And satan in the background...taunting Him, tempting Him. I cant believe how much more I understand of what Jesus went thru for me. Of course, Jesus went on to say "nevertheless, let Your will be done." And while it is hard to let go like that, I know inside that I really do want His will done...not mine! In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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The passage in Ephesians says, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints,” Ephesians 6:11-18.
I've never posted to you but have followed your threads and benefited from your kind offerings of wisdom and experience.
Prayers to all involved...you are loved and blessed, do not despair, you are not alone. Thanks 2Much. This is the battle call of all soldiers. In the Army, it is what we call Prep for Combat. It is what I need to do now. Thanks again for the reminder. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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MM, you and your family are in my prayers too. Thank you FinallyLearning! In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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Continued prayers in behalf of your family.
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I think sometimes about all the pain in the world. I hope we can ease that here, even if only a little bit.
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I am new to this site, but I wanted to pass along my hopes and prayers for you along with all of the others here. I know I'm both new and really in no place to give advice, but I have always found strength in 2 phrases that I grew up with in church.
1. God will NEVER give you more than he knows you can handle.
2. That which does not kill me, only makes me stronger.
I hope these simple words can be of even the smallest comfort to you. All the best from a brother in arms. Soldier...thank you. I will look in on your sitch once mine has stabilized. Right now, I am a little engaged with the enemy!! It's always good as a soldier to know that you are never alone, even when no one is around. We never leave a man behind! Thanks again. In His arms.
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MM,
To me you are the man that I know here from your typewritten words, views, expressions....
Too bad you can't print out everything you have ever typed out here and hand that to the Judge along with the rest of your lawyer's case work.
I believe that would speak volumes.
Anyway, I do wish you the BEST of blessings and hope that you prevail in every way at your hearing.
Plank. Plank...I wish all that know me could be there. I pray the judge can see the truth, in the midst of the lies that her attorney will spread. His mischaracterizations. I wish for justice. Thanks again. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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St. Theresa's Prayer:
May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you....
May you be content knowing you are a child of God....
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.
ARK^^ Thank you Ark!!!! In His arms.
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Mortar-
I would like to explain my "Rock" comment on my previous post.
I am very aware that Jesus is my rock, but I have always felt that God was leading me to your wisdom. You are a very wise man, and I believe the Lord speaks through you....you have never steered me wrong.
I know that throughout the Bible good people are put through trials, perhaps to test their faith, I believe this is probably the case with you. But you are strong in your relationship with God, and he will bring you through this.
I have always thought that Mrs.Mortarman was a very lucky woman to have such a strong spiritual leader for a husband, I can't believe she is throwing that away.
You are a good man, and those are a rarity.
I'm sorry for what you're going through, but I know the Lord will bring you through this, and that he has great plans for you.
In God's Love,
-Caren Thank you Caren! My sister. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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MM,
I am praying for you...don't know how the Big Guy intends to handle this, but I do believe that, when an earthly judge hears your story and how your WW messed around on you while you were defending all of us and our way of life as Americans, he will be none too pleased....
Biggest hugs and prayers your way,
BB BB...that is all I ask. The truth. Justice. Thanks!! In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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Continued prayers in behalf of your family.
SS Thanks SS!! They are needed. In His arms.
Standing in His PresenceFBS (me) (48) FWW (41) Married April 1993... 4 kids (19(B), 17(G), 14(B), 4(B)) Blessed by God more than I deserve "If Jesus is your co-pilot...you need to change seats!"Link: The Roles of Husbands and Wives
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((( Mortarman )))
I have just read where you have replied to each and everyone who has written to you.
What a very kind man you are.
God WILL reward you !!!
Oh by the way ~ this is breaking my heart. I will be waiting for the Good Word tomorrow when this battle is over with.
Mortarman, I know you can feel the envelope of love from everyone here.
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Prolly will never know much more than that
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(((MORTARMAN)))
My Brother...I give you this today in our ongoing FIGHT to deliver us from EVIL...
Finally be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the FULL ARMOR OF GOD, so that when the day comes you will be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of TRUTH buckled around your waist, and with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of FAITH, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one....With this in mind, BE ALERT and always keep on praying for all the saints. Ephesians 6: 10-18
"fervently" praying for you and your family...
I made it happen..a joyful life..filled with peace, contentment, happiness and fabulocity.
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((( Mortarman )))
I have just read where you have replied to each and everyone who has written to you.
What a very kind man you are.
God WILL reward you !!!
Oh by the way ~ this is breaking my heart. I will be waiting for the Good Word tomorrow when this battle is over with.
Mortarman, I know you can feel the envelope of love from everyone here.
Carnation That I can. It is as if satan is still attacking, but unlike before, his attacks are less effectual. In some ways, he seems confused. Almost blindly firing at me right now. Before, it was one barrage after another. Today? He hits me at times...but I see a lot fo near misses. I have no doubt it is because of all of the prayers. I have no doubt that right now, in the spiritual realm, there are angels from Heaven delivering Shock and Awe on the evil ones. I am hunkered down in my fox hole!! Calling in fire. And as a mortarman i nthe Army, I knwo what it is like to get that call from some lone kid out there...scared, alone and overwhelmed. And we tell the kid to "hang in there...help is on the way." And in a minute or so, he hears the help come. And a minute later? He stands...his position secure. This is no different folks!! In His arms.
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All I can add are my prayers for you and your family. ((((((((((((((((((((MM)))))))))))))))))))))))
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Let's all cry out to God for our friend, brother, guide at this moment. That the judge will see the truth, and rule accordingly. on my knees. far Well, folks...we finished the deposition today. It was crazy. Her attorney is a low life. Wanted to hang out asking questions about our sex life.
Anyway, court is Wednesday morning. I will need all of your prayers, as this will be a battle.
We know what her attorney will try to do now. Paint me into a corner as either scarey, or not wanting sex with my wife (as if that was the problem...lol!!! He actually tried to put our lack of sex on me and not being able to perform. folks, that has NEVER happened! Been some times where things needed to get warmed up...but never have I not finished the job, if you know what I mean). He is gonna try to pain me as a guy that would rather watch porno than be with my wife. Again, that is silly!
He is gonna try to paint me as not supporting my kids and family. That is even though she is the one that left, she is the one that wouldnt work on the finances, nor the marriage.
And more...
So, basically, he will take what few "facts" he has and try to spin me into someone I am not. The interesting thing is if the judge will fall for his mischaracterizations and lies. I pray that he does see the truth!!
I am far from perfect and have made my share of mistakes. But I have committed myself to my God, to repentence and to healing my family and marriage.
Mrs. Mortarman has never done so!
So, I pray that the Enemy does not prevail here. That I stand before this judge a humble man and that I do so only to do what is right for my kids. I pray that the judge will have discernment and will be led by the Lord to the truth. I pray that the Lord's name will not be besmirched by Satan winning on Wednesday and Mrs. Mortarman getting custody.
I pray that my attempt towards reconciliation will not turn out to be the biggest mistake of my life, one where my children will have to pay for a long, long time.
Folks, it is truly out of my hands now. And I can hear the Enemy trying to sow seeds of doubt in my mind. The attack is fierce tonight. Satan keeps bringing up what it will be like for me and the kids if my wife should get custody. It is overwhelming. This is the final battle. And EVERYTHING is at stake!
My entire future. My kids' future. All hang in the balance. I cannot fathom how she can get custody...how any sane person would allow that!
I say this prayer in order to admit that being this close to the edge is scary! "Lord, please help me with my unbelief. Please help me with my doubts. Please help me to stand...to know that You are the One...that it is Your decision here. Please dont let my children end up learning all the wrong things from these past four years. That selfishness works. That greed works. Lord, I ask you to watch over my kids and to protect them from this. That it be YOUR will be done."
Folks, I am out of ammo...and out of time! What will Thursday morning look like? Will everything I love and have worked so hard for be gone...a reward to a person who has actively tried to destroy me?
Life with the kids with her and OM and her calling the shots will be unbearable. This just cannot happen! It cant. everything...everything is now riding on this verdict.
In His arms.
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I have found a NEW REASON!!!!
A Treasure!!
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Ooops...
I didn't know someone else had already quoted Ephesians...
Yes, it is our BATTLE CRY...
Yes, we are all crying out to the Lord..who will not ever leave you or forsake you...
I made it happen..a joyful life..filled with peace, contentment, happiness and fabulocity.
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praying for ya.....be encouraged.
LLG=Living, Learning, Growing formerly reallyconcerned
Trying to stop fearing and start living
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1 D-day 8/2003, 2nd D-day 1/2006
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Wonderful Counsellor, hear my prayer.
Lord God, my brother mortarman is under attack, so that means we ALL are under attack. Stand him firm, Holy Lord I pray, and set a hedge of angels around him against this present darkness.
King of Kings, I pray that you use our prayers to confuse and enfeeble the dark forces at work amongst his wife's supporters, that their spiritual "dirty bombs" will fizzle to naught against YOUR righteousness.
Wonderful Counsellor, place in Mortarman's mouth YOUR words; strengthen his arm with YOUR might, guide his actions to YOUR plan and Lord deliver unto him YOUR peace that surpasses all understanding.
Lord God , let a stronghold of evil be pulled down and destroyed utterly on Wednesday, and that his WWs every thought be bought into captivity of Jesus.
I pray that Wednesday and Mortarman's situation be a resounding glorious testament to you Lord and your faithfulness to us. Let evil be humbled on that day and YOUR justice be done.
I pray this as a poor sinner, saved by grace
Amen
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Is there any possibility of countering her arguments with her coming back to the marriage feigning reconciliation only to try to get custody back from you? I know you don't want to play dirty...but isn't that essentially what she has done since she seemed to never have ended her A?
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