Mel,
Thanks for your post. I have thought alot about below.
Do you think that she might be contacting the OM via the internet or a secret cell phone? You know, you can easily check what she does online and you can put a secret recorder in her car. Do you think something is going on? I know its not fun to do, but if you are having suspicions, I would strongly recommend you cover your back by investigating them.
I don't think she is using the net or email to contact him via computer. The goober probably does not know how or even have one.
I do think the following is a possibility.
1) Using a secret cell phone that she has bought. (This is how she got caught before, I am not sure she would go down this path again)
2) Using a secret calling card from a pay phone. (Not likely because she knows so many people in town and so do I and it would be highly likely that someone would say, Hey I saw you wife at the pay phone the other day. I thought she had a cell phone)
3) Using a secret calling card from her parents home or office when they are not around. (Highly likely IMO, but she insists she is complying with NC)
4) Using the internet to text message him from her parents computer. (Highly likely IMO, he is on Verizon and I think you can do to their site like Cingular and type a short text message. Only problem with this and no way for him to respond to her, so it would be a one way conversation)
5) She could be using her parents computer (with their knowledge) for her backup plan for income. She once had a real estate license that we let lapse a couple of years ago. I found and email (after D-day) where she contact the state real estate commision about reinstatement. I quized her about this and she says she thought it would be a good idea to have it if we are going to by a rental vacation home. To me that is total bull crap. Why would I want to buy a vacation home with someone that is not sure they even want to be in a marriage. IMO this is very likely.
I have done some checking behind her with recorders etc... and have found nothing so far. The only thing I can't snoop on is her parents computer and I don't have access to the either.
The only way I can think of catching her in backup plans is via a remote keylogger that installs and runs in stealth. Something I would send to her email and hopefully she would open it from their computer. I really hate even thinking about that because I don't like being dishonest and even though I don't think her parents are encourageing her to stay in the marraige, I don't think I should snoop on their computer without their knowledge. To be honest I would not even know where to start if I choose to do so.
After saying all that I have said I have one final thing to mention on this post.
She told me yesterday that if she was not trying so hard and giving it her all she would already have gone to a horse show rather than respect what I am going through.
Hum, could be some truth to that I guess, but also, she could be just gutting it out through the holidays not unlike others that have posted here.
Also, she may be actually trying and I am just being paranoid. Who knows.
My other unusual situation is as follows. True my wife had an affair, totally wrong. But she also has another love that may be harder to overcome than the affair itself. Her love of horses and horse shows. I really think that if she thought she could no longer go to horse shows that she would almost ditch the marraige anyway. The easy thing would be to recover and then both of us go to shows, but the only problem with that is the OM would be there almost every time and NC would be impossible.
So I ask, people leave jobs, move from home towns, etc... to continue NC. Wouldn't it be insane on my part after all this to have her go back to the very spot that her 2 affairs started at. Same town, same events. 1st guy died, 2nd guy is still very much alive and kicking living with no exposure or shame in his little world.
Does anyone know of a similar situation? Am I worrying about something I should not at this point?
I know our marriage is over, so it has to start all over. Our 1st marriage almost made it 21 years and that is dead and was a charade the last few years.
Seeking guidance on any of the above issues.
Thanks WOL