Hey Charllote22,

Just wanted to let you know I have been follwoing your thread and really think you are doing great.

You have helped me tremendously!

Take care,
FT

Funny thing is the A is over (well unless it was restarted) and we haven't talked since Nov 5 and that wasn't a real discussion. It was getting me off the phone bill.

So outside of those two e-mail from last week nothing is going on.

Frustrating, eh?

It helps to know a lot more about human behavior and wayward behavior.

In this case I don't know what the hold-up is about. It could be a lot of things including her just stonewalling me.

That's atypical of her however but she seems thus far to be willing to part with the money and she brought it up not me.

Hi FT!!

Thank you, that's so sweet!!!

It's your kind of encouragement that keeps me going!!! Not only the vets with all of their great advice and guidance, but people like me who are here struggling yet take the time to pop in with such great posts!!!

THANK YOU!!!

And I'm so glad that I was able to help you by whatever I did. I'll keep doing it!

Another Texan, eh? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

YAY!!

But I love everyone else here, too. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Frustrating!!!

And the time seems to pass SO slow at times!

I always try to plant little seeds here and there when I can. It helps to feel like you're at least DOING something!

Won't be the case in B, though!

It's gonna be hard! As ready as I am, I KNOW I'm going to cry. And cry and cry.

I was talking to DIL and she had to change DGS so I got up to do a few things...packing more stuff away, laundry, etc.

I started to get SO nervous. My legs got weak.

And I have to wait until Saturday!!! What was I thinking!

I wanted to call my Doberman with the latest update. Haven't done so yet.

I know they are busy over there. Those people don't sleep, I swear!

They are ALWAYS there.

They are doing some remodeling there. They should have put in a sleep room!

Catch a catnap once in a while.

Dedication. Wish Mr. Gray remembered that word.

My Doberman commented to me about how loyal I am one day. I started to tear up. "Fat lotta good it did me!" I told him.

Geez, Mr. Gray...

You really threw a monkey wrench the size of the Titanic into our lives.

But I ain't gonna sink!!!!

And I'm taking you with me on that lifeboat!!! If you jump back in, what can I say?

Well, I'm takin' Jonesy into the lifeboat. YOU CAN sink, Mr. Gray!!!!

So darn painful.

Time moves so slowly when you're waiting.

Yep you will cry but that's healthy. You need to get rid of all the bad feelings and get yourself back on track.

You're right, 411!

I'll just make sure to have plenty of tissues on hand!!!!

Well she called and that was the worst conversation ever.

She got pissed at me for saying she hurt me. I tried not to LB, but she said I should move on.

We're going to meet at 1 on Saturday unless I decide to have her just send the check. She wanted us to meet in the middle of our two locations.

That pretty much screwed me up pretty damn bad.

She got mad that invovled my parents in dealing with her.

She accused me of controlling her. She said I needed to find the right person for me and she needed to do the same.

Not much I can do at this point.

Was hoping we'd be a success story but it's not <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

Oh no! 411, that's terrible!!!!

I feel so bad.

Listen, if you want to talk somewhere besides here...send a message to my email at .

It's a yahoo email.

That's just awful.

Anyway, really if you want to talk let me know. I am all around the pc right now...still talking to DIL and my sister.

Mr. Gray is still logged in. I had thoughts about calling him, just to see how quickly he calls me back...

Which has been right away of late...

But I don't read too much into that.

But still, he calls back immediately

So how can I not look at that with a little hope?

He wants to talk but he's chicken

But I don't know why

But now he knows information he wasn't privy to before

And it got his attention.

So I don't know.

This sucks.

And it sucks for you too...

I'm SO sorry this happened to you!!!!!


(((((((((411)))))))))))

But if your aren't comfortable with that, I understand.

I just want to help.

If possible!

Nothing from Mr. Gray tonight. As expected.

DIL wanted me to call him. I thought about it. Then I ate and started feeling ill and shaky.

So, NOT a good idea to call. If any weakness is present...he'd sense it in a heartbeat.

I do need to tell him something but it can wait until tomorrow.

Countdown is on for the PBL...not much longer will I be able to talk to him.

And he doesn't even know it yet.

sigh

Charlotte e-mail forthcoming.

Can you forward your email to my gmail account?

I can't get it to open in yahoo.

Now yahoo has crippled my processor. I'm going to have to reboot after this post.

my gmail is:

Done!

Thank you!

Charlotte... how goes it?

Hi princess meggy!!

It's quiet. Mr. Gray is online. I'm going to call him later to find out when he'll be here Saturday. I've been talking to DD. I am going to tell him that, too. And tell him I hope they can have a relationship someday.

He sure is missing out!

I sent my Doberman a thank you card for taking care of that lawsuit.

I've been trying to finish packing up mementos here so they'll be out of sight when Mr. Gray comes over.

If he shows up. He'll probably be stoned, too. He can't handle anything without that these days. I hope he's not, though.

Thanks for asking!!!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Check with your Plan A guru first, but are you planning on being in Goddess wear on Saturday? Maybe have great smells wafting from the kitchen. If you don't feel like that, just put a little drop of vanilla on your burner and it'll smell like you've been baking all day (don't forget to turn the burner on <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />). Have Christmas carols playing in the background? Making your home warm, cozy and inviting? You're still in Plan A right?

Hi princess meggy!!

I'm trying to decide what to have simmering on the stove. Something Jonesy loves for sure!

I have a new turquoise blue gauze dress that I got with DIL at the park celebration a couple of weeks ago.

I'm thinking about that one. It's really cute, with the way the skirt is cut. And it's LOW CUT, too!

Or, I can wear my...."so close to the butt that there's just that tempting curve barely peeking out" skirt!!!

But I don't know if I'll wear that!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

I don't know if BIL is coming with him or if he thinks DS25 is going to help him. So I might have to be a little more demure!

He'll be getting the PBL when he leaves.

c22, i saw on a science programs that men get aroused when they smell pumpkin pie. (Women become aroused at the smell of a cucumber. Funny, when I was a pre-schooler I could eat tons of them even when I wasn't really hungry.)

Pick up a Sarah Lee and bake it. Torture him!

Hi Bellevue!!!

I'll make pumpkin/cream cheese pie. He LOVES it. With homemade crust, of course!

I sent him a <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> in IM a little while ago.

He answered!

I am SO nervous!

He is actually talking to me in IM. I thought that was taboo for him because of Slag.

EEEEEEEEEEKKKK!!!!!

I'm so nervous!!