It's amazing what good sleep can do for you. I had no anxiety or panic today. I ran my errands and even watched a movie and felt ok. I actually didn't think about him for a while.

how's the job hunt going?
i feel like if you were out there working, even part time it would not only give you extra income, but keep you busy and your mind busy. you might meet lots of neat new people too! why not something in retail? you must have malls and nice shops around there. that is a fun way to meet people and keeps you VERY busy.

mlhb

LA,

It is amazing what a good nights sleep can do for you. Good job on your successes yesterday. Pat yourself and know that you are doing awesome.

I'm thinking about you. I'm glad you were able to get some good sleep. I know that going without and it kills us in all aspects of our life.

They say it gets better, I don't know when, but take those gifts of sleep and protect them.

I think I'll be ok today. I slept good last night. I only woke up a few times. Hopefully everything will go smoothly this week. That's my goal. Sleep well and activley look for a job. Job interviews always scare me, but since I'm sleeping, they shouldn't be too hard to handle.

Things went well today. I went to Target & picked up my other Rx and then stopped to get a wrap from KFC. Well I left my atm/debit card at the drivethru. I didn't notice until about 2 hrs later. During all of this I was not panicking. I was calm, cool, rational and I knew where it was. So I drove over to KFC and got my card back. No anxiety, no panic etc...I didn't even get teary eyed. I know it's the higher dosage of Zoloft and finally a strong enough tablet to put me to sleep. Sleep. I love sleep. Sleep makes me

Tonight was good. I went to audition technique acting class and did really well. I also got a voice mail message from a girl that I used to hang out with in HS. She had heard what happened and called my brother to get my number down here. She sounds the same. I'm gonna call her tomorrow. The way my former HS classmates are contacting me and telling me to be strong makes me feel so good.

Confession time: My friend and I used to be Varsity Cheerleaders. Yes, I know, strange visual.

I talked to my friend today and she said that when she went through her D it was hard because she had to really fight to get custody of her boys. She said she's just relieved now. She said just take things 1 day at a time. It made me feel good to talk to her.

My super fantastic life saving friend has asked me to go with her to the humane society to pick out a cat. It should be fun. AAnd it gets me out of the house.

Is it for you or her? Have fun.

It's for her and her family. We found an adorable one. She's white and gray and has long skinny legs and tail. She liked to purr and snuggled up to us right away. Her 2 kids are going to be so shocked.

I found out today that a very good friend of mine is pregnant. I started crying. This time because I was so happy. They are gonna be great parents.

Had an ok day today. I'm going to sleep good tonight.

I heard some things through the gossip grapevine about WS and things he supposedly said to mutual friends. It has made me very, very angry because they are not true and I could prove they aren't true. But I'm not talking to him. Which is probably best, because right now I'd just be yelling at him on the phone. I'm trying to breathe deep and just let it go, but it still makes me mad.

Oh yeah...the mutual friends are starting to choose sides now. Which I think is so stupid.

it's hard LA.

Especially when those we loved lie right through their teeth. And of course their friends believe them. I had mine arrested for attacking me in front of the kids. He had a RO for over a year. Went to court and pled guilty to the charges. He now has a record. You know what he did? Told everyone that the charges had been dropped for lack of evidence! And there is not much I can do about that. I did make sure his parents knew the truth though. But, he even tried to convince ME that they were! After I spoke to the DA myself.

And the lies keep coming. and coming. and coming.

I never realized how much of a liar my ex was until he started having affairs.

Just consider the source LA. And those who chose sides maybe shouldn't be friends anyway. Ex and I did really share any "mutual friends" persay. If I see any of his friends I will say hi but I was not close to any of his friends.

mlhb

Well, I made it through the weekend without calling him and yelling at him. I know it would do no good. I wanted to call the "friends" who have been spreading the lies, but I know it wouldn't do any good. They would just deny it and try to put it back on me. It just makes me so angry.

If they are knowingly spreading lies, they are not friends. Another sad fact about divorce is that, often, you lose friends. It's a bummer but a truth.

The person spreading the lies is very manipulative. I do not trust them. And knowing that person is spreading lies really irks me. I definitley know who my real friends are now.

We defintely learn alot through this, don't we LA.

I got really good feedback in acting class tonight. It felt so good. My bottom lip was starting to quiver. I cried all the way home. I just wish my husband could've understood how much I love acting. I think he was jealous of it.

Well, we don't lie about you. And we care about you. And, when you get your Oscar or Emmy, we expect you to invite the Great Goddess Girls to be your guests.

Actually, divorce reveals friends as they truly are - either friends or non-friends. If you lose friends because of divorce, they never were!