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Can you see a difference? Sorry I didnt want to cut you off but late for work isn't good. Do you still want to talk some more? I want you to know I'm 100% dedicated to stopping all negative thoughts and fostering positive support and encouragement from this point forward.
Yes I was close to Sophie. I should have never turned to another woman with my problems. I realize how that hurt you and it will never happen again.
I am sorry that I viewed the porn. I haven't forgotten how it came between us, and now that I understand how it made you feel, it will not come between us again. I won't allow it.
I am begging for your forgiveness on all my past transgressions. I am ready to move forward and build the relationship we both want. Being separated from you is hard. I miss you and want us to be able to rely on each other for support. I am here for you. I'm interested in what you're thinking, what you're doing, and how you're feeling.
I love you.
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I agree with you difference in posts, other than the porn one. It wasn't the porn itself that created issues. I made the stupid 18 year old mistake of comparing my (then fiancee) to a porn star. I didn't go to another woman because I wanted to. But I needed that outlet and my wife was ignoring me. Does it make it right? No. I know this. I didn't want the relationship and had no feelings for her, part of why I gave it up so easily.
Thanks for the comment on the poem. There's more, but I just wanted to give an example. I do these a lot. She used to do them all the time for me but she doesn't anymore. A lot of the sweet romantic, lovey-dovey stuff she used to do for me she doesn't do anymore, yet still expects it from me =(
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See sig 
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Been looking at your thread periodically, glad to see some progress! And glad you exposed!
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Going good. A week into Plan A so far. She seems to be responding better, acting nicer, paying more attention, etc.
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Is she reading the MB books?
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Nope. And I told you guys she wouldn't. She's intimidated by "outside assistance." AKA: Books, Counselors, etc.
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Nope. And I told you guys she wouldn't. She's intimidated by "outside assistance." AKA: Books, Counselors, etc. Then, can I ask in what way is your Recovery "going great"? Cause it doesn't sound great from over here......
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Nope. And I told you guys she wouldn't. She's intimidated by "outside assistance." AKA: Books, Counselors, etc. Then, can I ask in what way is your Recovery "going great"? Cause it doesn't sound great from over here...... And you're entitled to your opinion.
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Nope. And I told you guys she wouldn't. She's intimidated by "outside assistance." AKA: Books, Counselors, etc. Then, can I ask in what way is your Recovery "going great"? Cause it doesn't sound great from over here...... And you're entitled to your opinion. Do what you can do. Your situation is tough. Read up and learn so that when you do return home you have a good foundation laid and a plan of attack to prevent recurrence.
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"Smart people believe weird things because they are skilled at defending beliefs they arrived at for non-smart reasons." - Michael Shermer
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And you're entitled to your opinion. Hmmm.....not trying to be rude, just curious. Sounds to me like she's still Wayward, still playing WoW, still stepping all over you, refusing to accept any help.... still lying to you.... all taken from your posts.... and yet, your recovery is going great? I just thought there might have been something you didn't mention that would make that a true statement. Or perhaps you mean that from YOUR end, you're Plan A'ing well? I'm just confused, that's all. Here to help.
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Now in a committed relationship with a woman of character who loves me so much better and deeper than I ever dreamed possible. I had no idea what I was missing out on and am so grateful God gave me a free "second chance" at love and life.
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DDay: 5/17/2008 - Separated 6/1/2008 - Filed 8/3/2008
Divorce final 3/2009.
Now in a committed relationship with a woman of character who loves me so much better and deeper than I ever dreamed possible. I had no idea what I was missing out on and am so grateful God gave me a free "second chance" at love and life.
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And you're entitled to your opinion. Hmmm.....not trying to be rude, just curious. Sounds to me like she's still Wayward, still playing WoW, still stepping all over you, refusing to accept any help.... still lying to you.... all taken from your posts.... and yet, your recovery is going great? I just thought there might have been something you didn't mention that would make that a true statement. Or perhaps you mean that from YOUR end, you're Plan A'ing well? I'm just confused, that's all. Here to help. I think that is the doing great part. He is implementing the thoughts and process of Plan A. Gotta lay out the feast before you can snare the dragon(lady).
"An expert is a person who has made all the mistakes that can be made in a very narrow field." - Niels Bohr
"Smart people believe weird things because they are skilled at defending beliefs they arrived at for non-smart reasons." - Michael Shermer
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Exactly, I'm doing everything "I" can by implementing Plan A. There's not much else I can do.
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Exactly, I'm doing everything "I" can by implementing Plan A. There's not much else I can do. You did already cut all the purse strings that you could, didn't you? Anyway, I think considering your situation, you are setting up nicely. Count down that deploment clock, then when you get home, time to do some affair slaying - 40 man heroic hard-mode style.
"An expert is a person who has made all the mistakes that can be made in a very narrow field." - Niels Bohr
"Smart people believe weird things because they are skilled at defending beliefs they arrived at for non-smart reasons." - Michael Shermer
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Hi, Chris ~
God bless you for what you are doing for us in Afghanistan! You ARE precious to me, Sweetheart!
Your poem is beautiful!
It reminds me of the poems my H used to write to me!
Keep your head high!
Keep your focus on the love that you want to restore in your marriage...
You are on the right track!
God Bless ~
I am praying for you...
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Anyway, I think considering your situation, you are setting up nicely.
Count down that deploment clock, then when you get home, time to do some affair slaying - 40 man heroic hard-mode style. Thank you, and I am. Old school BWL style? Hi, Chris ~
God bless you for what you are doing for us in Afghanistan! You ARE precious to me, Sweetheart!
Your poem is beautiful!
It reminds me of the poems my H used to write to me!
Keep your head high!
Keep your focus on the love that you want to restore in your marriage...
You are on the right track!
God Bless ~
I am praying for you...
Thank you. That is just one of many. And part of Plan A is focusing on the positive--So I am.
Me: 28
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