Tonight I feel so hopeless I can't stop crying. I have this feeling deep in my heart that I have lost my H.
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One day you will look back and see this as the hour before the brightest dawn of your life, if you stay on track. I promise.
He was telling me that she is pushing and pushing for them to buy a house together. I feel if he does this then that is her way of getting some kind of commitment out of him. She knows he won't marry her so she is trying the next best thing to reel him in..
Yes of course she is. She doesn't think she is worthy of marriage and she is not. She is an imbecile and she will fail miserably.
Just get out of her way while she works hard on making them both miserable.
What kind of woman keeps on staying with him after she found out SIX MONTHS ago that he was cheating on her with me. .
Because she is a married man's mistress and she expects this. She does not expect any more than this. Most losers do not. Being the receiver of sloppy seconds is in her job description.
She is a cockroach on the table of life who feeds on the crumbs of others. Once you leave the table and take your food away, she can't feed on your pain any more. Even though she thinks she wants you gone, she will really be unhappier than ever and feel like the loser she is.
Before she was triumphantly taking someone's husband away. Now she has been lumbered with the cheating reject by the far more dignified wife.
I'm so scared he will do it. Why doesn't my WH have a backbone anymore? Why can't he just stand up and say NO to her.
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Addiction. He is not there any more. He is alienised by the addiction and will keep you both in his addiction for as long as you allow it.
I have this feeling deep in my heart that I have lost my H.
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You lost him more than two years ago. That does not rule out future reconcilliation, but you MUST protect yourself while he is not himself.
You are not losing your H, all you are losing is OW's monkey-boy.
I'm so scared. I feel if he buys a house with her then our marriage has no chance. I'm praying to God he doesn't do this. .
I would be rooting for this actually - it will kill them within months and is a laughable example of her pitiful standards.
That is the LAST thing you need. Plan Hope has nearly killed you. Your husband has been strumming on your hopes like a harp until you are played out.
You need certainty. Certainty that you will no longer put up with this. Certainty that you are on a 100 pc guaranteed plan for personal recovery. That you will not abandon that plan until he has presented you with a CERTAIN plan for recovery.