I'm so upset and crying. I don't know what to do or how to proceed.
My DS informed me that his daddy told him that he had found a house to buy with OW.
I'm so devastated. I feel like I can't breathe and am falling apart all over again.
How could he go and do this to me knowing how much I love him. He knew this one thing would destroy me yet he is gong to do it anyway.
I thought he loved me. Even a few weeks ago when I saw him last he said he was trying to avoid buying a house with her. Well he hasn't tried very hard has he? Doesn't he have a voice? I don't understand.
I know the love I saw in his eyes for me. I know he loves me. Who makes that sort of commitment to someone who they don't apparently love? Why won't he say no? I have no chance anymore I just know it.
He has made so many promises to me saying that he doesn't see it lasting with her and that it's ME he wants to spend his life with. But he doesn't want to hurt her. Yet he has no qualms about hurting his wife who has been hanging on like a lap dog for the past two years!!
He told me that we would be together by September and that he really couldn't see it lasting any longer with OW. So if he truly believes this, why would he go and make a commitment of buying a house with her?? Why buy a house with someone that you don't think is going to last?
Or is everything that comes out of his mouth one big LIE?
So broken right now. I love my H so much. I can't believe he continues to hurt me and hurt me and hurt me.
I guess it's out of sight out of mind for him. Looks like my Plan B letter has given him the green light to go and buy his house with OW. Guess he hasn't missed me AT ALL. He's obviously not been pining me whatsoever.
I guess 10 days of NC he hasn't spared a thought for me. As soon as I'm out of the picture he's 'YES now she's gone I will now go buy a house with POSOW'. So much for him missing me and desperately wanting me back. Nope.
Once again his actions have spoken louder than words.
I feel like such a fool for waiting and hoping for something that is never going to happen.
SHE'S WON. I guess POSOW is feeling pretty happy with herself right now. I hate her so much. Even after she knew he'd been seeing me she still continued to cling onto my husband so I wouldn't have him.
I just really thought he loved me you know? Even through everything I could just look into his eyes and see that he loved me. But obviously not enough hey.
I guess he's just like any typical wayward afterall.
What's the point anymore? He's made his choice. I'm so p*ssed off that he has hurt me again.
I so want to contact him badly and tell him how much he has hurt me and how could he do this to me. I want him to know the pain he has caused me. But I won't. It will all fall on deaf ears and nothing I say will change anything.
These last ten days of NC I have come so far in just that short time and felt I was doing so well. I was doing well. And now this has come to light and I just feel hopeless and worthless.
Should I just divorce him and cut my losses and accept that it's truly over?
I've been reading Love must Be Tough and have felt so encouraged but I don't know what to think anymore.
I'm sick of feeling this pain
How do I pick myself up from yet another blow?
Why can't my marriage just get the break it needs??
Indie I know you said you had no fear they would break up whatsoever but I just can't see it happening anymore. And that he would be back on bended knee to me. I can't see that either. I really wanted to believe this and hoped for it but after today I feel so broken and uninspired.
I know Dr Harley says most affairs end in 2 years but they've been living together nearly 2 years and dated a year before that so they've basically been together 3 years
Even when he cheated on her with me she still clung on like a dog. I don't think she is ever going to leave and he obviously won't tell her to.
So gutted