If you can get through one of those real low roller moments, you can get through anything!

Indie I think you are spot on with the hidden wayward. Even I could probably see that and I'm no expert!

You know that saying 'Those who doth protest too much'. (or something like that).

Your BF is very lucky to have you. I bet he knows it too!

Let's hope my rollercoaster is coming up to the top soon I've sure had enough of being at the bottom.

Thanks Indie! Feels good to pick myself up again.

Good for you, Rock!!!! You handled that like a pro.

Indie, how much you wanna bet that OW is still walking around, looking over her shoulder, muttering "Affair down?" over and over and over again. It's almost like that resonated or something.

I've seen dead eyes in the face of a wayward spouse, now I've seen the crazy eyes of the OP (I confronted mine over the phone, never face to face).

I had a lot of pity for her strangely. Not enough to be nice though

I'm so glad you didn't cave!!!

Good job. Now plan some self-care for you!!!

I'm glad I didn't cave too BrainHurts. It's so hard though.

The only self-care I've really been doing is getting earlier nights and resting. All this is wearing me down and I look forward to sleep.

I'm having angry days too where I'm so angry that he keeps staying with OW. Is this normal to get angry too? I suppose it is.

Everything you feel, good and bad, is normal. Keep working to ease your way through the bad feelings, though. Just because they're normal doesn't mean you want to stay in them.

Sleep is very good self care!

I went through the whole gambit of the different grief emotions. All the way to happy- as- a- clam

Yes sleep is definately a good start considering I haven't slept well in ages. I'm hoping to get to happy as a clam too!

I'm actually going digging for clams on PEI. Don't think the clams will be too happy about that

Today is 3 weeks exactly of Plan B for me. That's a big milestone for me. I actually do see little signs where I'm getting stronger and feeling positive about the future. Baby steps.

Neak I sure don't want to stay in the bad feelings. I'm getting better at pulling myself together and thinking of positive things.

lol

I love it when you see a Plan Ber start to get sparkly. It's like seeing a snowdrop come up in late winter.

You planted it, you knew it was due, but it is always a little miracle when it comes out to play.

Ha! Finally got a few photos uploaded. Copy and paste this, and hopefully it will work fine.

http://s34.photobucket.com/user/you_neak/library/Prince%20Edward%20Island?sort=3&page=1

Neak those photos are amazing!! Thanks so much for sharing. I can't wait to see inside the Anne House that's number one on my list. Is the LM grave site near the Anne House do you remember? And I can't wait to go down those trails

Indie I've decided that I am now wearing an invisible crown and nobody is going to dull my sparkle

I don't remember how far apart they are, but the whole island is so small that everything's pretty close to everything.

Thanks Neak that is good to know. Maybe you can go back someday!

Wow just read my whole thread from the start. I've even surprised myself at how far I've come. What a mess I was back then!

Back then everything was so raw and even though the advice I was getting was spot on it was like I wasn't really 'there' if you know what I mean. I was so caught up in my pain that I wasn't really listening. In fear. And now I read back on what everyone was writing it just makes so much sense now and having lots of A-HA moments.

So now I'm onto Week 4 of Plan B. When I first started Plan B every day seemed to last forever and I would cry all day and night. Nearly 4 weeks now I feel empowered and know 100 percent I am doing the right thing.

At first I did think i was doing Plan B for my H to come back to me. Of course I still want him to come home to me. But now I realise more importantly as everyone has pointed out to me, is that it is for ME. For me to heal. For me to become a stronger better person. To become the best mother I can be for my DS.

When I first started Plan B four weeks ago I never thought I could do this. It was hard there's no doubt about it. I nearly caved and called him and I fought with myself about it so many times. But I didn't cave. I was strong. And you know what? It's second nature to me now. I don't fight with myself to call him. I know my plan and I stick to it. I know that I will not cave. I'm doing it and surviving!

It's getting easier each day. I can't believe how fast this time has gone. At the start the days would go so slow and drag on. But I'm keeping busy and enjoying my time with my son and planning my trip.

It feels good to have a plan.

Thank you everyone here for being so super duper awesome and believing in me.

I still love WH with all my heart and pray for a chance for our marriage to recover. But as Susie says ' I don't have a deathgrip anymore'!

I'm going to make my life the best I can be and I won't be treated like a doormat anymore. It's my time to shine!!

Thank you everybody here you have all been my saviour!

Indie you're definately right the first three weeks were the hardest. I can feel myself going higher up the rollercoaster now.

I will be realistic though and know this may change and I may go low again, but for the time being I'm enjoying feeling strong and empowered.

And that my friend, is what a MB success story sounds like. You may not recover your marriage, but you WILL RECOVER YOURSELF.

Good job.

Thank you BrainHurts. Your advice is always so helpful I feel good today.