I had not seen my wife in a week and 1/2. We had talked a few times on the phone. I slept on the couch last night and she came home this morning to get some of her things. She went upstairs to the closet and brought down some of her winter clothes. I thought this was kind of odd since the weather is getting nice. She took them out to her car then came back in. I heard her gowing through the closets and the dresser drawers. I asked what she was looking for. She told me she was looking for her 50 state quarter map. She had saved a bunch of the new 50 state quarters. She found the map and took the bag full of quarters. Probably about $25 worth. She then asked me if she could have half of the money for a video game we had recently purchased. So I gave her the 15 bucks for it. She got ready to leave and I asked her what her plans were. She said she would more than likely get the divorce papers but she would hold off for a little while. I told her that I was confused and did not understand everything. She said she had to figure out what she wanted to do with her life. She then got in her car and I walked outside and told her that the oil in the car needed changed in a bad way. She said I know then left. It was evident today on how big of a problem my wife has. You see my wife is addicted to methemphetamine. I am loosing my wife, my marriage, and most likely my house and a lot of other things I own. This household was based on 2 incomes. I am loosing this all to a drug. My wife not only looses but I suffer all the losses too. Before I was married I had a few relationships. Some of my ex girlfriends left me for other people. Some left because I had cheated. I got over these fairly quick and moved on. The situation I am in now is far more devistating. I am no match for a drug nor do I try to be. It hurts so much. I not only suffer loosing my wife but I suffer seeing her destroy her life. All for something that is not even real. If I were loosing her to another man at least I could compete. She is completely blinded by the drug. She used to be a head strong woman with goals. She always knew what she wanted out of life and took it. She never smiles or even laughs about anything anymore. She appears to be so depressed and so unhappy. She always tries to act like I am the reason she is so unhappy. Sometimes she has fooled me into believing this. I no longer believe thats the case. I know no matter what happens I will survive. When I married my wife I always believed I would be with her until the day I left this world. I never thought there would be a problem that we could not work through. I look back on the memories I have shared with her. I laugh and sometimes cry. I will forever hold a place in my heart for her. I had hope and faith not long ago. But now even those are slipping away.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> It was evident today on how big of a problem my wife has. You see my wife is addicted to methemphetamine. I am loosing my wife, my marriage, and most likely my house and a lot of other things I own. This household was based on 2 incomes. I am loosing this all to a drug. My wife not only looses but I suffer all the losses too.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> </font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> I am no match for a drug nor do I try to be. It hurts so much. I not only suffer loosing my wife but I suffer seeing her destroy her life. All for something that is not even real. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">epbrown,

As you can see on my sig line, I can feel the pain that you are going thru. It hurts like he!! watching someone kill themselves slowly knowing that there isn't a thing you can do except pray. They have to hit thier own bottom and many never do. Sorry that you have to go this, it's not something that I would wish on anyone.

Have you gone to alanon? It poo poo'd it for 17 years and finally went for me last July at the urging on some on these boards. It turns out it was the best thing I could have done for myself and our kids.

The MB principles are great, but they aren't so effective until the person is clean.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> She always tries to act like I am the reason she is so unhappy. Sometimes she has fooled me into believing this. I no longer believe thats the case. I know no matter what happens I will survive.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Been there, done that

Blessings,

D